feeling a bit better yet scared

It's been 4 days since Spike went to the Grey Havens, as Tony & I put it.  And while I still miss him like I'd miss a limb, I'm starting to feel the pain subside.  While that's somewhat of a relief, I also fear that if I lose the pain & sadness I will lose the memory of my sweet, little boy.  Please someone reassure me, because I know that everything fades in time.  In fact, it's been 8 years since Freddie (my childhood cat) passed, & nowadays I rarely think of him (I wear the locket which bears his pic from time to time). On another note, I bought a beautiful urn for Spike: http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=350286923301&ssPageName=STRK:MEWNX:IT We'll get his ashes in a week or so, & I want to create a memoriam worthy of Spike. :)