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  Catching Up After Forever

  Posted by: LoddyAoddylo

  Last Reply: Sunshinegirl0228 09/21/2025

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  It's been quite a while since I posted. I have a new laptop and I'm on it almost constantly. I moved to another group home, and I love it after a period of adjustment. I spend my days mostly online,jamming on YouTube among other things.My diagnosis is schizoaffective disorder,bipolar 1 type.I take three antipsychotic drugs but am really just hanging on. Every third day, for some reason,I have a psychotic break. I'm a devout Christian and I'm almost constantly tormented by the devil. I hope no...

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  Posted: 06/24/2020

  LoddyAoddylo commented on the discussion ECT: On the Table?.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 06/24/2020

  LoddyAoddylo commented on the discussion ECT: On the Table?.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  ECT: On the Table?

  Posted by: LoddyAoddylo

  Last Reply: tootiredtotry 06/28/2020

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  So bottom line, I had 2 recent hospitalizations, expressly for the purpose of tweaking my medications. When I say I've tried everything, I kid you not, I have. Not doing well, after all that. My caregiver (I live in a group home) got me in to see my pdoc and she recommended electro-convulsive therapy. I wouldn't even be considering it but the thing is, I'm starting to get desperate. My family and friends have always told me how intelligent I am, but I don't seem to be smart enough to find a...

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  Posted: 06/08/2020

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  Posted: 11/11/2019

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  Posted: 04/27/2019

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  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 10/08/2019

  LoddyAoddylo commented on the discussion Friends Welcome.

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  Posted: 10/06/2019

  LoddyAoddylo commented on the discussion In the School of Prayer.

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  In the School of Prayer

  Posted by: LoddyAoddylo

  Last Reply: shadowlady 10/17/2019

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  I'm learning many things as I experiment with prayer. I pray what I call "Even If" prayers, meaning that I will love the Lord and serve Him even if He doesn't answer me in a way I expected.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Update

  Posted by: LoddyAoddylo

  Last Reply: beckyp 06/28/2019

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  I was in the hospital for 6 days recently, following a psychotic break. Technically my diagnosis is schizoaffective disorder, bipolar 1 type, but I hope it's OK if I stay in this group.I take Celexa, Lamictal, Clozaril, Zyprexa, and Ativan. I seem to be more stable now because I had another med tweak while in the hospital. But what scares me is the fact that I had the psychotic episode, despite taking 3 antipsychotic meds (my former pdoc had added Haldol prn). I asked the tdoc in the hospital,...

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  Posted: 06/14/2019

  LoddyAoddylo commented on the discussion Desperate.

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  Posted: 06/14/2019

  LoddyAoddylo commented on the discussion Desperate.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Desperate

  Posted by: LoddyAoddylo

  Last Reply: LoddyAoddylo 06/14/2019

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  I just had to re-write this because my computer froze up. The long and the short of it is that I haven't been doing any better, even after numerous desperate measures, so I'm considering going to the state hospital. I have thoughts of self-harm every day, and every night I pray I'll go to sleep and never wake up. My faith is starting to waver. My thoughts are just a jumble, and I feel like I'm really going crazy.