Outside Inside

yeah so i havent written anything in a while, im suprised i could even write this. anyway its read ---> then <--- way and yeah what eves  On the outside I smile, to convince you of my strength.On the inside I cry,Because im really weak.On the outside I seem happy,Because this is what I want you to think.On the inside I hurtThe pains some times to much to bear.On the outside im a girl, That's how everyone sees me.On the inside Im a boyThat's what I was meant to be.On the outside I don't care at all, I act like what you say doesn't effect me.On the inside I care too muchSome of the things you say hurt me.On the outside I know the way to goI lead I don't follow. On the inside I am lostIm hopeless and need help to find my wayOn the outside I am calmI keep my cool and make you think im not freaking out inside.On the inside I am angryI hate what happened to me and what it did to me. I want to destroy the cause of my pain.On the outside I seem strong I don't show weakness to those around me. I stay calm in all situations that should hurt me.On the inside I am weakIm just another lil slave boyOne that needs someone else to take control of meto belong to some oneto help them outthat's what I live for.Im a bundle full of out of control emotions.that seem to change almost instantly.I am someone who aims to please someoneI am someone who doesn't cant control myself.I am a boy who  has lost there way.Left here broken in aworld that could care less.Wondering what’s going to happen in the end.I’m just another human beingThat has a broken past.