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So, It's Friday, I made it until the weekend without a breakdown! Ashlee went to college everyday and I stayed at home. Pops helped look after lola and me. But It's come quickly to realization...

So today my partner went back to College; she said she would be back at lunch time, she had arranged for granddad to watch Lola, I should just sleep. I was terrified, I'm not going to lie but I...

I hate being ill, some times it really just f's me right off. Like not only do I have back, shoulder and leg pain but now I feel like hulk is bear hugging my ribs. My heads been hell all day and I...

I don't know why I find it easier to write here then I do on a blog. It's some how easier, like people some how understand better on here. Like I'm never ever going to run into anyone from here on...

The wedding yesterday went very well all things considered. It was painful and I am in pain this afternoon because of it. But I feel like my fiancee and I really got the couple time we needed and we...

Tomorrow is a good friend of mine's wedding. We are going (my partner and I ) and I am absolutely dreading it. I'm going to be in so much pain but I want to be there for my friend! I've spent all day...

Dear angel looking over me,do you hear my prayers?Please keep me safe from harm,and give me strength to carry on.I know your there, cheering me on,lent me your faith,lend me your wisdom.Dear angel...

So last night after writing I realized that something needed to change, majorly. My other half as missing college to look after me today. Last night we briefly talked about our situation. I need a...

Today I had my annual appointment with my rheumatologist. As I have got considerably worse in the last 3 months I had pinned a lot of hopes on this appointment making changes and helping me. It was...

Today I woke up unable to move either of my arms from the sheer agony, after a restless night sleep. So up I got, the rest of my body 4 hours on is now in full swing fibro mode, my heads pounding, my...

So night 3, or is it 4; whichever, where I have cried myself to sleep alone and in pain. I feel so alone. I just want a cuddle and to feel like somebody actually gives a shit. Not like they've got to...