Icantstop
Status: Well back on after a very long problem time.
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- It's been on my mind alot. I have been thinking about death and what it would be like. Is it peaceful. Is it just a dark abyss of nothingness. Nothingness is what I long for so I don't have to feel anymore. I long for death and the sweet relief it...
- about a month ago I started purging almost every night after dinner. My family hasn't though anything of it. They blame it on ibs which I don't have. My friends have constantly asked my why do I always go to the bathroom after eating and I lay and...
- Today was horrible. I was in my Audio Video Production class everything was great. I went to sit in my chair and someone pulled it out from under me so I fell and got hurt. Everyone started laughing at me and it hurt not only physically but...
- I have a plan for next Monday night while my grandma is gone and I am home alone. I have been cutting the last few days but it seems it is not enough. So I have been gathering the things I need. I'm going to write my note over the weekend. I'm going...
- I cut again last night. I didn't do many since iI used my wrist I had to be able to hide them under my bracelet. I didn't cut deep just enough to get blood. I wish that i would have slipped and cut deep enough to just bleed out right there.
- A while back someone told me that I needed to be my own hero. How can I do that if I don't know how to rescue myself. I'm falling again and I kept reaching out but every time I grabbed a hold of something I thought would help me out of this never...
- I'm leaving this worldto an unknown beyondI tried to save myselfBut I'm to far goneI made an effortI honestly triedThey said I'd betterAll of them liedNow I'm entrappedIn Darkness's chainsAnd I'm out of controlRiding this crazy trainOne point I...
- I am the girl in the back of the classroom. I have a story that would shock most people that knew me. My story is nothing like what they would expect. It is a story of pain, brokenness, love, suicide, and loneliness. My name is Victoria and I am 16...
- I am in a safer environment, getting the attention I need, and the nutrition I need. I'm not in that filth anymore or around my ass of a stepdad. So why aren't things getting better in my head. The darkness is still there, the dull lonely ache in my...
- I have found out a lot of things about myself lately. One of them sing I dnt like guys anymore. I'm lesbian. I tried to come out to my parents did not work. Not to mention that I can't find a girl that likes me.
- Everything just keeps getting harder and harder. My temper is getting worse. I snapped at a girl at lunch today in front of the whole cafeteria. I have been clean 4 weeks but my wrist is itching badly again. I just tried coming out to my family and...
- I cant take this anymore. Everyone looking down on me. Teachers asking me how my day is going when I walk past in the halls. Hello look at my face. I AM NOT OKAY. Look at my wrists. DOES THOSE CUTS REALLY LOOK LIKE IM DOING FINE. I'm stuck in a rut....
- Lately its like no one know I'm here anymore. As if I'm invisible and silent. I ache to be hear to be seen. The need is eating me from the inside out. As my heart deteriorates and breaks, my self-control disappears and the blades come out. I want...
- So I am with this guy Trey. He has my heart. He loves me and I love him. Well at least I thought he loved me. But just the other night I stopped at McDonalds to send him a quick message to tell him I love him. I made a typo and it changed the word...
- You guys I don't think I can handle it anymore. The pain has gotten to great and no one here is helping me anymore at all. Therapy isn't helping and neither is the meds. The need to grab a gun and put a bullet through my head is back an worse than...