Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
It's been on my mind alot. I have been thinking about death and what it would be like. Is it peaceful. Is it just a dark abyss of nothingness. Nothingness is what I long for so I don't have to feel anymore. I long for death and the sweet relief it brings. The pain around me is overwhelming. My grandmother has started being abusive. I was recently gang-raped by kids I have to see everyday. I'm scared of life and the surprises it holds. I'm scared of moving forward. I am so sick of being made the victim and taken advantage. People believe that I am only here to use me. What would they do if I wasn't here anymore? Would they cry? Miss me? Or just be mad that they have to do things for themselves now? I was cutting and it seems to has lost the relieving sting for me its not enough anymore it seems like.
As for the kids that gang-rapped you, you should report it, or take steps to protect yourself. I know the feeling of having to see the kids that hurt you but you need a safety plan. If your not willing to report for what ever your reason maybe, they you need to tell someone that you trust, I would suggest a teacher that you can go to if they are bugging you, unless you have a trusted friend that you know would never tell anyone. I would suggest reporting the rape. It is hard but they should not get away with that horrible evil act.
Your needed here, and yes your life is not one anyone wants. But you will get through this, and you will be a much stronger person because of this. :) Trust me, your needed on this Earth, and you will see that once you get stronger and see that what you went through made you stronger. And you will be able to help others that are going through something that you went through.
Stay Strong!!! :)
If you ever need to talk I am here for you. I understand.
Please dont do it, your needed your mind is only letting you see the easy way out and not the strong person you will become if you stay around and fight through this!! :)
I look forward to hearing more from you. I care!
The last time I was raped I was able to report it and the investigation is going on, but I at least feel a little stronger from reporting it.
There are people who can go with you to help report it. They have local advocates that I could help you find if you don't know of the place in your county, or you could look at rainn.org. They also have people to talk to there. I think I may have mentioned them to you before. I refer people to them alot.
I understand wanting to die and thinking about death. I do it to. Nights are the worst of thinking about bad things for me. It's hard to get your mind of off it.
Is there someone at school or anyone you can talk to about your grandma being abusive? You shouldn't have to put up with that. I know what it's like living with abusive adults and it's a living hell.