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I'm still sore in the left jaw and now under my chin to the right (a lymph node is there isn't it?)  My back hurts but I upholstered the second bench anyway.  Who knew that little crafty things...

Pain woke me up at 3:30 a.m.  Yesterday I took a vicodin at 4:30 p.m. so I could make it to church.  I tried to go without at 8 when the pain came back.  Must have been a mistake.  Anyway....I...

Monday and Tuesday NO PILLS!!! yeah! I was achey but nothing I couldn't stand and I'm so happy I was pill free. Maybe I'm getting better. Sunday I felt great - only one pill when I had to sit for...

Started to feel bad in the afternoon and realized I forgot my Effexor.  That never happens.  Anyway, I felt much better around 7 p.m. but I did take a vicodin at 3:30 not realizing I might be...

Even less pain today.  But fatigue is a problem.  Last night I did the program at my church.  Stories of Forgiveness.  I was exhausted afterwards.  I worry that I'm not going to be able to do a...

NO PAIN - well a little in my back but I be feelin' GOOD this morning.  Yesterday was bad in the afternoon.  Took a Vicodin at 4, at 8 I was using all the heating pads and still the pain came back...

Pain this morning - the coffee didn't kill it.  I woke up around four cold and uncomfortable.  It turned cold last night and I think the weather definately has an impact.  When I warmed up the...

I have an apointment with an acupuncturist on march 17 who is also a psychiatrist.  Cool huh?  She aint cheap but I have high expectations and it will be worth it if she can help.

I'm feeling great today - almost forgot to write a journal entry.  Yesterday was very very painful. The shoulderblade/mid back trigger points hurt so bad in church I had a hymnal wedged behind my...

I woke up  feeling good.  As in - I could get out of bed as long as I did it slowly so the pain came in waves instead of all at once. I didn't sleep but I'm not tired.  Go figure.Yesterday in the...

I think about suicide every day.  Sometimes several times.  It is a comfort when I'm really down or in a lot of pain to think.  Hey, I can alwasy commit suicide.  I have been in the place where I...

I took three vicodin yesterday.  THe manic bump adds to the anxiety and when the pain gets really bad and it was really bad - bad enough to wake me up - I just can't manage both.  So ...  At times...

Hmmmm  I just spent $8000 on renovating a bathroom.  I know it needs it - but ??? am I manic or making a good decision?  Well, yes I'm a bit manic - not the irritable kind but the only sleeping a...

I'm not sleeping. I guess it is a manic phase. The pain is particularly bad right now. I had to take a vicodin at about 4:00 a.m. I'd managed to go more than 24 hours wihtout anything but the pain...

There is no one to talk to.  Everyone thinks I'm invincible - well, because I led them to think I'm invincible.  Turns out I'm not.  I was pushing my body too hard.If one more person tells me to...