Bernie23

10 days gamble free.  I've been going to the gym a lot and taking classes...today I'm sore!!  Need to keep busy..that's the key for me.

Took 2 classes at the gym today - one this morning and one tonight - makes me feel better.  I think there's something to this "endorphin" thing!

Last Sunday I self excluded from all casinos in my state.  Gradually I'm starting to feel better.  Spent the weekend with my brother, sister, and nephews.  Had a great time.

Feeling better every day.  Delivered Meals on Wheels today and that always makes me feel good.  Those people do more for me than I can ever do for them.  Tomorrow I am visiting my sister and...

Had a good day yesterday at the spa with my friend.  We talked at length about my issues, and she made up a list of activities for me.  She will also check in with me to make sure I'm doing ok.  I...

Going for a "spa day" with one of my friends today.  Maybe that will help! I think I'm just anxious about paying off my bills.

2 days since I self-excluded and I still have this sadness inside. I did sleep a little better last night.  We got more snow...so that doesn't help! Trying to keep busy today.

I don't know what I expected after self-excluding myself yesterday....but I didn't sleep well and today I just want to stay home.  I am in business for myself so don't really have much to do today,...

Today I self-excluded myself from all casinos in my state.  I thought I'd be happy, but I feel very sad...like I sad good-bye to an old friend! I just have to get my life back on track.

Here I sit after another gambling episode...feeling angry, alone, and disappointed.  I wanted to write it down so I don't forget these feelings.  It's not that I didn't win...I won a lot...but put...

Been trying to go to Mass every day (I am a devout Catholic)...I pray for all of us!

Just trying to keep busy.  My business has been so slow, so I'm trying to do some business development.  Tough times...

Thinking about how I fell off the wagon over the holidays and paying back my credit cards.  I try to rationalize everything...I live alone so I'm not hurting anyone but myself, I'm not at rock...

Fell off the wagon over the holidays..,.I guess the best thing I could say is that I broke even.  My heart breaks for some of the people on the message board.  Sometimes I feel guilty because I'm...

Went to the gym, did some last minute shopping - going to finish wrapping presents this afternoon. I know now boredom is my biggest enemy...I don't have many urges to gamble when I'm busy.