Fell off the wagon

Fell off the wagon over the holidays..,.I guess the best thing I could say is that I broke even.  My heart breaks for some of the people on the message board.  Sometimes I feel guilty because I'm not really broke - true...I would have had my mortgage paid off if I didn't gamble and been in much better financial shape, but I'm not at rock bottom.  I'm just afraid I will be soon if I don't stop.  Back to the drawing board!