CutieKathy
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- So it's been awhile since I've been on this site. But I'm back! Anyway, recently this last weekend, my parents went shopping with me. I've also felt really moody and irritated. So on the ride home, my parents were annoyed with the way I acted. And...
- So I like this Filipino singer named ericka vilongco and ok I looked at one of her blogs. She says she's around my height and weighs 84 lbs. yet she even has abs, a bigger bust than me and a butt. I thought how it was possible. I weigh more than she...
- sometimes i'd sleep not to think of the things that i'm insecure about or whats happening in my life at the moment or even my past. i would even sleep to skip a meal. and my parents just think im being lazy. :/
- this was who i was talking about in my discussion i want to love myself. and i would feel insecure about myself every time i saw her around in high school. i felt unpretty. Her name is Geny. She is on the left....
- in high school, during PE class, there was this drop dead gorgeous girl who i sort of envied. i wanted to look like her and even be like her. i thought she had the perfect body. she was perfectly skinny with curves in all the right places. she even...
- these past several days i have not been finishing my meals. i would restrict and starve myself until the late afternoon. then i would grab anything i can find. but i want to be skinny. if i ever gotten fat, i'd want to die. i would even binge. and...
- i just ate a whole bunch of cheetos and threw up. i hate my mom. she is an asshole. people like her dont deserve to be on this earth. i dont want to have children. i want to be as skinny as possible. i hate being me. i'm a pathetic person who cant...
- so i wanted to get my books for college and my mom told me that i always wait till the last minute and other people who r fast, they have already gotten their books. i hate myself that i am slow due to my delay that i was born premature. and...
- so today my brother was making fun of eating disorders by singing a song he made up that goes "You ate all of the pie, then you throw up all over the place" then he started laughing. i thought that it was pathetic and stupid. i felt like bulimia was...
- pics like these REALLY trigger me, but i know i am still a fighter. http://24.media.tumblr.com/2170d6dda9de46c158fff0abe0d98235/tumblr_mm48s9xnnN1qbsovvo1_500.jpg
- so i just had dinner and my mom made a bowl of spaghetti and a plate of garlic bread. I ate with my dad and brother. and then i had some carrots and dipped it in ranch and then i had some ice cream. The thing is my mom doesn't really eat dinner with...
- Her words are so deep.... this is also my real story... i also felt everything would depress and stress me and i was only 6 years old. i remembered listening to this for the first time and it broke my heart. T_T...
- this is why i am recovering. http://www.takepart.com/photos/eating-disorders/next-gallery
- My mom just spoke to me this morning and whenever people first meet me they would think i am pretty and nice. But once they get involved with me or get closer to me, they would see that i am brainless or just a "dumb brunette". It really triggered...
- I am deciding to RECOVER. and i really mean it. i know it's hard at first but i take my word. i have come up with tactics whenever i feel urges. And a tactic i came up with is whenever i feel like i want to purge, i would either put the hand that i...