Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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CutieKathy 08/14/2013

so today my brother was making fun of eating disorders by singing a song he made up that goes "You ate all of the pie, then you throw up all over the place" then he started laughing. i thought that it was pathetic and stupid. i felt like bulimia was haunting me and kinda crept back into me. i just ate a whole bunch of junk food while watching tv and then i wanted to let my dog out. my brother was frustrated after a long day at high school (his second day of freshman year) and he let my dog out while i sat there feeling like my brother thinks i'm useless and dumb. so i went to the bathroom, turned on the hot water and then stuck my fingers down my throat. i feel hopeless and i have a huge fear of having kids. but i want them at the same time. i know that i'm damaging my body and i've been having irregular periods for almost half a year now.... i feel stuck. i don't know what to do.

deleted_user 08/14/2013

I think you've already taken a big step in acknowledging the fact that you are only damaging your body by doing this, and to me (I could be wrong) it sounds like you are unsure if you want to continue doing this to yourself.

Have you confided in anyone about this?

CutieKathy 08/15/2013

yes i am unsure if i want to continue doing this. and i have confided in one of my close friends.

Desigol1979 08/15/2013

(((Kathy)))

Kids can be vicious at times. Don't let him live inside your head rent-free.

deleted_user 08/15/2013

Im going thru the same thing. Ive been feeling good about myself and my curves, but then someone makes a comment, and all i can think about is how disgusting and fat I look... So i relapsed into old habits..

CutieKathy 08/15/2013

(xmichhxx)
yeah i totally feel you. I wish someone could just open up my head, collect all the negative thoughts and feelings and just burn it or throw it in the ocean somewhere so it will never come back.

deleted_user 08/15/2013

I am glad to hear you've been talking to one of your close friends. In the end, friends can only help so much. Sometimes by talking to a therapist, you are able to learn better coping mechanisms, instead of harming yourself in any way. Have you considered seeing one?

CutieKathy 08/19/2013

i would like to see one but my parents feel like i'd b wasting their time and mine. :/

deleted_user 08/20/2013

I feel this pain but you have to forgive yourself thats what helps me pull through. tomorrow is a new day. Make a vow to yourself for tomorrow! Day by Day

CutieKathy 08/21/2013

thanks for the advice. but i feel like everyday is just the same...

deleted_user 08/21/2013

If things get worst get professional help. I am in treatment right now. It's hard but it feels a lot better having people around me who know what i'm going through,

CutieKathy 08/22/2013

i am actually doing better. i just finished a book called Wasted by Marya Hornbacher and it's an incredible book. it's one of my favorites. it helped me thru a lot and i guess there is a happy ending where Marya is recovered. and after reading the book, i decided i also want to recover. and being a member on this website is part of my help. :) i dont think i need to seek professional help unless i feel im not getting better but i am getting better.

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