MelbaToast

I'm home alone and crying. Depressed is like barely scratching the surface of how I feel. I have no friends. Nobody gives a fuck about me. I woke up this morning thinking about killing myself. I...

7PM: Crying my fucking eyes out for the umpteenth time...third time today...SO depressed, anxious, desperate, lonely, hopeless, helpless...I'm a total failure. Update - I got laid off 1/6/09. My...

I'm so sad today :( just anxious and teary eyed. It's Friday so hooray for that and all. I've reached a point where I'm so anxious about coming to work that as I walk up the hill to get here I like...

Christmas is a hard time for me, emotionally. I tend to let stress overwhelm me all year long, and I always get stressed around this time of year. Lately I have a been dabbling in CBT which is...

Argh. I was having a decent day, but now I'm all pissy. At least the day is almost over...silver linings and whatnot. I'm so annoyed with the people I supposedly work "with". I was at a company for...

Me? Positive? Well, yes. Sorta! I am having a decent day and that is very cool. So...go me :/

I'm suicidal and kinda scared.  The anxiety and depression are totally consuming me and I feel trapped by them.  I feel like I can't talk to anyone. I'm gonna take a Xanax and try not to be a...

I'm totally stressed out, depressed, and tired :( Justin (my bf) got laid off back in March and can't find a job, so we're also quite poor. He's bummed out that he can't find a job, and it's very...

Holy shit, I gained 4 pounds in ONE fucking day. I feel like a total fucking whale. My pants are unzipped halfway down - it's that bad. Not only did I gain 4 pounds in one day, I am now the heaviest...

Parents everywhere lie to their children on a daily basis and I just think that's fucked up. They tell them "You can be anything you want to be, do whatever you set your mind to...where there's a...

       Hey wow I'd forgotten all about this site...but got that message from Doug this morning and remembered it. Things are...up and down, but more up than down lately. I first came here...

       Hey wow I'd forgotten all about this site...but got that message from Doug this morning and remembered it. Things are...up and down, but more up than down lately. I first came here...

So today just sucked all around. I got up ridiculously early since there was supposed to be some meeting at my office 7:30-1. I didn't *have* to get there early but I chose to in case anyone needed...

It's been a long hellish week in my short hellish life. Last Monday night, a very dear friend of my family's passed away. We all saw it coming. Her health had been declining slowly over the past...

Whew.   It's tough coming back to work after being on vacation in California. Last Wednesday I went to Santa Cruz to spend time with my bf's 3 sisters. We had a wonderful time and so today I am a...