yes happy with my progress

My friends have said that I seem to be better than they have ever known me to be! Wow! I read in here that I was again happy with my progress back in July around the 4th. I have had a very comfortable 4 weeks. Is it the kombucha? Perhaps, that's about the time I started it. Is it going to samE for a while? Perhaps that too. I've been on it before and it made me manic almost immediately. I took 1/2 as much this time and quit once I noticed I was starting to feel wired. But that doesn't mean it didn't help. 4 weeks is a long time for me to feel comfortable. I'm stoked and my friends are noticing!  I started to get anxious 2 nights ago when I let myself stay up till 2 am. I thought of suicide for the first time in a long time. It was fleeting. Then I started to get real afraid of the trip home I'm about to make. But I told myself that I really didn't want to go there in my head and just rested and went to sleep. Had about an hour of discomfort yesterday but an hour is normal I think. Everyone doesn't know what to do with themselves some of the time.  I really am feeling good, very strong, helpful, aware, healthy, and the best of all, calm and serene. What a miracle. I love you God.