sunnyjax

So this morning - with my H - we were cuddling in bed before he had to get up for work, he started being intimate but I just couldn't relax. He has started and then just left me before we finish many...

So here I am a total screw up.I had an amazing opportunity yesterday to work and get some help from an amazing woman and I messed up. I just froze. Im not sure why. Im ok face to face. It was to be a...

so last night we had a chat….I tried to explain to him about my PTSD and how I live with fear every day. I had said I'm really grumpy as Im scared about a lot of things and you trigger that in me...

Is this a call for help.?! Im not sure.Im so confused by my life at the moment. How do I feel about him? Im not sure, he confuses me. He flips from addition to disgust and I can't work him out...

So my first journal post. I feel the need to write this down, not sure why. I feel so odd today. I thought I was doing so well and was feeling much much stronger. Last night my Hs daughter came...