feeling loved?! How does it feel?!

So this morning - with my H - we were cuddling in bed before he had to get up for work, he started being intimate but I just couldn't relax. He has started and then just left me before we finish many times and its made me like this. I think I can't relax as he will jump off me in a minute…. so I tried to explain this to him. Trying to explain that I wanted to feel loved by him, I need to feel his love. Silly idea, so then he turned me round and wanted to have sex from behind - WTF - not very loving to my mind. It felt cold and like he just wanted to get off ( he didn't / can't) i felt sad. I finished him off but I did that because I wanted him to love me. I want him to love me.
Im not feeling it. What does being loved feel like? I think I know but Im confused with him and the way he is. Theres not very often love in those eyes! I think I remember that look of love, that can't tear your eyes away seeing deeply into someone. Now Im trying not to fantasise here but be truthful.
 
How does being loved feel?!