deehigs

I sometimes hate to post good things on here because i don't want anyone to mistake it for bragging . I am not stupid I know things can change for me at any moment and i could be sucked right back...

I haven't been on here much since my computer broke I still check in often to see show everyone is doing.  I have been crazy busy with the new puppy I love him so much but man is he allot of work....

Tonight i went to a therapist it's about time!   i also went to the library and checked out some books on addiction and recovery  I decided it is time to really do some proactive  research and...

I know many of you know my story about the night of May 5 when a heavenly spirit God, or Jesus  maybe even a  Guardian Angel  whomever compelled me to get out of bed and check on my son and found...

I took my daughters to an amusement park near our home yesterday. They each brought a friend and had a great time and as I was sitting on a bench waiting for them to come off a ride I looked over to...

My goal is to survive this NIGHTMARE!

It is  sometimes so hard to decide if I am enabling or just caring an example : when my son lost his wallet with his debit card, license etc... I told him to take care of it and do what he needed to...

I am really down today because i hate to admit it but I really can't stand my own son this is so hard for me to have such conflicting feelings toward one person but part of me despises him and the...

I'M JUST REALLY FRIGGIN MAD TODAY I HATE WHAT THIS HAS DONE TO MY FAMILY AND MY ONLY HOPE WAS THAT HE WAS AT LEAST ALWAYS REMORSEFUL UNTILL NOW. ALL OF THE SUDDEN IT'S OK TO ACT  NASTY AND TREAT...

My sister is driving me crazy!  I know that she means well and i love her for that and appreciate her concern but she calls me up and harasses me about matt saying things like don't let him hang out...

While driving matt to school tonight he said he forgot his phone while we were discussing what time he thought I should come pick him up. When we got to the parking lot of the school I handed him my...

I had a good day today . I went with my youngest daughter Emily on her 5 grade trip to see the Lion King in NY city today awesome show !We also had lunch at Carmines in the city ( food was great) ...

Matt has decided to join a gym!  yeah i have suggested this to him since january he always shrugged it off i don't have time blah blah blah. Well now he decided it would be a good idea because he...

So i just found out the my NOSEY neighbor has been trying to find out why the ambulance was here that night May 5 when my son had a o/d . We are not friends she is a rude sarcastic bitch and she is...

I  was on facebook today and I found myself going to the page of a 18 year old boy my son went to school  with that past away in March . His name was John and although I didn't know him personally...