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- My mom is dating again. Good for her. But my problem is this. Her boyfriend has a friend who is around my age. He is an ok guy but not someone that I would date. On top of that I am bi and I want to try going out with another girl. But I can't say...
- I haven't been on for a while. Partly because I have been busy, but also because I thought I was doing ok. I hadn't cut or burned or cut myself for almost a year now. Hadn't being the operative word.Recently I have been feeling really bad. I live in...
- It has been awhile since I have been on here. I know that the whole idea of this group is for us to support each other. But I didn't want support I just wanted to be left alone as I went down my dark road of cutting and burning myself. I was busy...
- It is one of those days. I wan't nothing more then to die. I have been crying since I woke up. Today we are putting my grandmother in the nursing home and I feel as if I have failed her.....
- Since my accident and totaling my care I feel like a burden to others. I wasn't really feeling that way until recently. A friend and I go to a Wednesday night Bible study. We have been doing this for awhile. When I wasn't in school this friend did...
- The box cutter is in the other room just waiting as I sit here listening to my mother and my brother's girlfriend whisper (not very quietly mind you) about my mothers love life with someone who is younger then all her children and she thinks that...
- I haven't done anything yet and I hope that don't but right now I want to do something badly. Something....it is more then something and I know that I want nothing more then die right now. My body and spirit is drained and I feel like I can't go on...
- I am freaking out and trying hard not to go find something sharp and start cutting. I have lost my job and trying to get unemployment is a pain. They are taking forever on everything and I am running out of money to continue to do things. I have...
- Lately I have been looking into my past and seeing how my life has gone. I have just realized that when it came to love or guys I have been completely over obsessed about them. I found that I made sure that I talked about that one guy all the time....
- I find lately that when I want to cut or burn myself I seem to find other ways to do that. Example A I just lost my job because I am slightly to slow for them. I have disability's like dyslexia which makes me a little slower. But they do a scale...
- I have to do one of the hardest things I have done in a long time and that is go to my father and ask for help for college. This would normally not be a hard thing to do for a child except that my father was my abuser. He was the one that...
- It was easy to just take the tooth pick and burn it just enough to put the hot coal on my skin. I tried to fight the ergs that were there but I lost that battle one more time. The burns on my skin only look like little bug bites. But still I know...
- I don't know why but I did the one thing that I was hopping not to do last night. I love to burn things always have and I will admit I am a pi-row. (I am positive I miss spelled that sorry) So in my loving to burn things I burned a toothpick and...
- My "nephew" and I were at the beach today and we had made a fire. I was tending to it and he sat next to me and started to poke at it. Sparks started to fly and one landed on me. The pain felt nice and calming as if it was a something new that I...
- Being a person who is trying to become a pastor in a denomination that does not yet accept the gay community I have a hard time finding people to talk to about who I am. I want to be able to talk to a person face to face about my sexuality so that...