JennSerene

I had 22 months off of video games. Last night I threw it all away, and today I continued to play. I have no plans of stopping any time soon.  I'm hiding from feelings. There is a lot of sadness I...

Lately I have been feeling very sorry for myself.I just have so many issues! Between the mental issues and the physical issues I am just feeling very upset and overwhelmed.Tomorrow I have to call my...

I've been noticing a few subtle side effects of the Abilify since my dose has been increased.First of all, before going into the side effects, I am very happy about the stability I have been...

I have been thinking about video games a lot lately. For a few days there the thoughts and desires had gone away, now they are back but this time its just the thoughts without the nagging desire/need...

I've been having quite a few difficulties lately, but nothing very bad.I got a new mouse for my laptop and the scroll wheel died.Meanwhile I was installing the Windows 8 Beta over my laptop, causing...

Yesterday in my morning meeting before I bought the car I brought up the topic of "hope" because I was feeling hopeless. I ended up hearing a lot about the 3rd step of the 12 steps of recovery. The...

Today I bought my new car. A 2012 Silver Kia Forte.  I've been very depressed all day long. Its a nice car, but I'm so sad that I had to buy it. I'm not sure there is anything else for me to say.

Today I woke up at the god-awful early time of 7am so that I could drive up and be at the VA Medical Center by 8 for my very first appointment with my primary psychiatrist. I have been waiting two...

First off, so I don't forget, let me say that I was weighed the other day and forgot to mention it in yesterday's journal entry. I am 190, so at least my weight isn't fluctuating any more, but its...

Today was a lot better than yesterday.I went to the VA Hospital in the afternoon to see my pdoc and I expressed everything I wanted to about what was going on. I have 3 major changes I want to have...

After I finished writing the last journal I realized that I have learned one of my mother's behaviors. She gets paralyzed by fear, and I do the same thing but differently. In my Mother's case if...

It has been too long since I have written a journal. I have the excuse that I've been sick but really I was lazing around and could have written some stuff. In fact I had stuff to write about, I just...

I'm really feeling shitty right now. I work for a company that runs a course called The Living Course (TLC) as I mentioned in a previous journal. The courses last all weekend long, 30 hours of...

I just had an incredible weekend of personal growth, however I have been noticing something rather interesting that may possibly be a side effect, or may be something else.I can't remember if I have...

Not much happened today other than my classes and I went to the hospital for a preparatory appointment for a colonoscopy *shudder* I can't believe I'm getting that done. However, during that I got...