abjure
Status: loneliness fades into sadness, sadness turns into disappointment, disappointment manifests into anger and anger flames into rage
Mood:
Ok
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Not quite sure where my life is taking me right now. I feel like I am a trespasser. Stepping ever so gently not to disturb the environment or make myself notice to others. Quietly I stroll without a...
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A DS friend wrote a journal entry the other day about how thankful we should be when we experience love. That love is an undeniable energy that cannot be ignored. We need to recognize the value of...
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Checkmate! I lose to a game that I am not skilled at. It takes so much skill to think of the next move. I play the pawns one by one and lose them all. I find my knight is not shinning and is taken...
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Yesterday:I am truly happy lately. I seem to want to shift my emotions to the negative for some reason though. My mind is not use to happy. It feels weird and uncomfortable in this place for too...
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It’s odd how I have so much to say and never really shared it with anyone. When there is someone who will listen, it truly is a wonderful thing for both people. Listening to stories, relating,...
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Why am I the way I am? Even wanting to change my personality is so damn controlling. Had an eye awakening episode today, need to start opening my eyes more, and keep my mouth shut.
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One of my characteristics of my personality is being controlling. I need order in my life. When things are concrete and certain there is reason and a goal to obtain. If things are left for free will,...
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The season is changing and so has my mood. For once I can truly say that life doesn’t seem to be bringing me down. I am feeling warm and alive. I am happy (a little bit and that is all that...
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I have been thinking too much these last couple of day. Too much for me to handle, too much about me, just too much negative self loathing. I guess it’s my little pity party and the people have...
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When will I learn? I am a smart girl. I am a phoenix. I play with fire but how many lives will I live, how many times will I return? Will I learn anything from my journey? Will I be reborn to make...
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“You may say that I’m a dreamer but, I’m not the only one” is a classic and memorable part of John Lennon’s famous song Imagine. I am a dreamer. I dream big. I find myself wanting to be...
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Another day, another weekly visit to the shrink’s office. Hmm I wondered this morning how this was all going to play out, based on last night’s entry here on DS. Same old same old, I filled out...
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Oh how I loathe my inner personality. I have such revulsion against my own self when my feelings of self pity, loneliness, heartbreak, and stupidity arise and show signs of its evil ways. I just...
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I'm in a good way. I am happy. I love this feeling inside. I really can't remember the last time I have felt this kind of joy for 2+ days in a row. All I need is a simple hello and a warm smile to...
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I sit here in the dark thinking of deep thoughtsSoul searching; embarking on what life has brought I sit her in the depths of despairNever to reveal or share I sit here sedentary alone and afraidAs...
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