Poem: I sit

I sit here in the dark thinking of deep thoughts
Soul searching; embarking on what life has brought
 
I sit her in the depths of despair
Never to reveal or share
 
I sit here sedentary alone and afraid
As my good memories of yesterday fade
 
I sit here dreaming of better days
Questioning how I can change my ways
 
I sit here and ponder my life
Am I a good wife?
 
I sit here and wonder if I we can still be together
If we part will I still be a good mother?
 
I sit here struggling to see any kind of hope
Will I carry on and just cope
 
I sit here crying and longing for a better tomorrow
But I drown in the pool of my pitiful sorrow.
 
I sit here with my hands together praying
Save me from this life that is fraying