I just miss him

I'm not angry or sad, I feel okay, today - I dont know tomorrow - I feel at peace with myself, I feel somewhat happy but I miss him, I miss talking to him, I miss him in my life and I wish.  I wish for things to be different, I wish we were able to fix things.  I miss the man that he was, I miss my marriage, I miss our happy memories, I miss the laughs.  Is like a death but with no finality - my dad passed away and I miss him, I also miss talking to him but I can't change death, death is final and I found acceptance in my dad's death but I haven't been able to find that finality in the death of my marriage, I haven't been able to stop wishing.  I have found some acceptance but part of me still misses my husband more than anything.