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Today I'm trying to find strength but honestly I have not been this depressed in a very long time. Like everything in my body is ready to shut down and ball up and cry. I just feel so defeated. When...

Today I feel so horrible. It's like everything I have tried to do has failed. I wanna cry I wanna die but neither comes. I miss Brandon and I know I messed things up like I always do. I walked away...

Today is new day. Not sure how I feel. Last night I talked to a friend of mine, well he actually somewhat like a boyfriend but not really.  It's crazy cause he seems sad too. I want to be his...

I sit back and reflect on all that has happened.  I'm so hurt and sad but trying to move forward and leave it in the past. Just very hard

Today I sit here and I wonder do I enjoy being in pain emotionally as well as physically? I love with someone that I knew it was a bad idea until I must have to go back there with. I don't know why I...

Today I feel good but melancholy.  I miss things I can't get back.  I know in reality it's time to move on but the hurt is still there just the same.  I'm like lost without real guidance. my heart...

Hello world! I'm back and trying to determine if I'm good or bad. If maybe I'm approaching life wrong.

Two years my kids were taken from me and given to my parents. It's hard because i made a horrible choice and married a selfish abusive man who left me and my kids homeless and found it funny. Since...

Lately I feel stuck.  Like my life has no purpose.  I can't seem to understand why I feel like this.  Although things seem to be getting better but I still just feel lost. 

Life is really good. I am succeeding in all the tasks God has placed before me. This journey has been a hard one but God never said it would be easy. Thank Jesus for His precious blood.

Today I found out that my husband was just trying to use me. It hurt but I'm not surprise. So I have decided to just block all his calls and cut any communication with him. I have to let God handle...

I feel like an idiot. Gave my all to someone who never cared for me.All he cares aabout is himself so I feel very stupid

Dear journal,Today is an odd day for me. I feel so lost and confused. Everything I have worked really hard for seems to be going down the drain. Since me and Tedric been married it seems like he...

I believe in God and His wrath. i believe that sin comes with punishments. recently i have been practicing. sex outside marriage. it has gotten me to a point where i am so depressed. i hate myself...

Today is a new day. All weekend I was with someone who made me feel so wonderful and as soon as I made it home all that changed. I was no longer happy, infact on the drive home I hated myself and...