Happiness

Today is a new day. All weekend I was with someone who made me feel so wonderful and as soon as I made it home all that changed. I was no longer happy, infact on the drive home I hated myself and hated going home. I feel change of scenery is what I need but can't seem to pull up. I feel there is something out there for me just cant see what that something may be. I pray but sometimes feel my preayers are unheard. I feel like dying most the time and have developed a mild drinking problem. I feel I need help.