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the urges are so strong right now that my body literally hurts...i just took an ativan like 10 minutes ago...i hope that will help...i don't know what's wrong with me tonight.

I'm having a lot of thoughts and urges tonight....I'm not sure...maybe I am just bored.  I don't know.  I've had the thoughts straight through but tonight I have urges to act on them.  I don't...

well...I talked to my pharmisist today since I can't get ahold of my psychiatrist.  I told the pharmacist all the symptoms I've been having and about the blood pressure and we've decided the...

My friend that is having the marital issues sent me a message on facebook earlier that i didn't respond to until just an hour or two ago that she was having a rough day and bad thoughts about people...

just because i don't have my planner nearby (where I usually write this info) 11:49pm 138 SYS/96 DIA pulse..72 11:51pm 136/92 pulse...69 Okay...I'm okay...breath.  Nope...that hurts my head...

Feel today like I'm crashing.  I'm doing not so great things to keep myself distracted from the situation I'm in and am feeling like hurting myself.  I'm not only smoking cigarettes but now weed as...

So, so far none of the housing options have worked out.  Long wait lists, places filling up too fast, lack of options for someone not on Income Assistance.  I'm still living in the residential...

Well, I didn't get kicked out...and I won't...because I'm working on an exit plan so I will be moving again soon.  All the options I'm looking at are supportive housing but you get your own...

Well, I'm still at the residential centre but it won't be for long.  I'm on program contract which means I have to try extra hard to make it to programs or I get kicked out.  I haven't made it to...

Quick update...sorry I've not been reading and commenting on your entries.  I have limited computer access, had none at all for awhile. I'm out of the shelter system now but living in a residential...

made it the 6 months but slipped up...also been kicked out of the house that I had loved and all the people that were there....now I'm living in a women's shelter.  So that's how my new year started...

180 days, just barely.  It's very early on the 180th day but I know I'll get through.  I had a good talk yesterday with my landlords - they're youth pastors at my church and I find it quite helpful...

177 days!  Still lately I want to give in so bad...I think about it 24/7 and I'm just not sure how much longer I can go.

127 days! I've been thinking lately...and I think it's time for me to leave DailyStrength.  It's been a great place but it's now time to move on.  I'm going to miss the people that I've met...

112 days!  I made it past that rough day without giving in!  Things are settling down and I am feeling better about things.  I like it here...despite the things going on around us on the...