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It is official. I am now Colleen K. Fleckenstein, Homeowner. We signed the papers today and can start moving on Friday. Lalaalalalalalal!!!!!

OK. I will have this stress test even though I swore after the last ont I never would again. Never is a very long time. I will have an echo the same day. Sept. 15. blah blah blah. I'm so very sick of...

OK. I just reread my last journal. I was pretty upset then and in a hurry to go to work. What happened at the cardiologist's office was this. The EKG lady, innocently asked me if I knew Jeffrey...

So I went to the cardiologist today. O do not remember what he said. The EKG lady said something I'll never forget. Do you know Jeffrey Fleckenstein? I lost it. I live in the nation's 5th largest...

Buying a house is stressful! My husband and I are at each other's throats. It's a wonder there has been no blood shed yet. We are supposed to close on Friday but things are not looking good. At this...

I believe I have given birth to a kidney stone. I feel great!!! Happy Labor Day!

I was up until 4:30 this morning with kidney pain. I have stones that are cooking. I finally went to sleep but kept waking myself up whimpering. Today was a serious packing day. We are supposed to...

Today I found out that I have nodules on my lungs. Five of them. I don't know where they came from but I am a nonsmoker now. I googled pulmonary nodules and decided not to have them. They don't sound...

  Today is a good day. I'm happy to be alive. That's all I have to say about that.

Last night I was  sitting at the computer looking at the picture of Jeff on the wall, talking to him silently, asking him to give me a sign that he was here. The headphones that I keep hung over the...

This picture is me & Jeff over 25 years ago. We were so beautiful! I weigh double that now and Jeff is upstairs in an urn. What the hell happened?   Today is the 21st. I hate every 21st now. They...

I had a horrible day. I must pack to move and I, being the procrastinator that I am, decided not to procrastinate this time. So this morning I took my husband to work and went to the new house to...

I am missing my son like crazy today. This picture was taken 2 months after Jeff went on the transplant list. He had Mono. The young man next to him is his half brother Tommy.    I had other stuff...

I am missing my son like crazy today. This picture was taken 2 months after Jeff went on the transplant list. He had Mono. The young man next to him is his half brother Tommy.    I had other stuff...

I had a dream of Jeff yesterday. He was too small to be Jeff and he didn't look anything like my boy but I knew it was him. I don't know what that means...if anything. Just thought I should note it....