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Everything is so messed up right now...Monday, I cut.Tuesday, Whitney broke my heart.Wednesday, my mother was rushed to the ER.Today, I find out my mother more than likely has cancer.She has tumors...

So much stuff keeps happening.. first off I keep having these dreams where my dad is doing things fathers shouldn't. The first was just abuse, causing me pain. The second he abused me, raped someone,...

So I have been planning to participate in the day of silence on April 15th for the last month. Today I did a photo shoot for my friend Haley, playing an inexperienced model to help her get into...

She has a boyfriend... but she likes me, wants me, I want her. We have all the time in the world for each other and yet lately I feel like we don't like Im not important to her even though I know I...

Okay! So today...A girl from my dance team came up to me and another girl were friends with in the hall and tells me that she heard a rumor that I was gay... our friend kinda covers for me because...

Cut in three places yesterday,Cut in two places today,It's only getting deeper and deeper.When I first started all this shit in 8th gradeI was only rubbing things against my skin, scissors,finger...

Right now I have all A's and B's except one test brought me down to a D in chemistry, blech. And I'm so behind on econ work but if i can focus for just two seconds i should pass fine. yayy for higher...

Cut myself on Monday for thefirst time after 133 days of not doing it.And I'm failing two of my high school classes.I hate that I'm not living up to my ownexpectations fof myself.

not good.thinking about.running away.

Started dating a guy in 2nd period, realized I was an idiot and can't like guys in that way, broke up with him 7th period, got yelled at, cussed at, and told to never come back into his life again...

So recently I've come to realize that the words 'I love you' are more than over used. I can't stand people who pull me back and forth, it hurts too much and I'm over it. First you want me and you...

3D Art-  AWorld History-  CEnglish 11-  BAlgebra 2-  DMath Lab-  APainting-  AChemistry-  C Fuck.... :( not good at all

Title: Weakness Falling apart never felt so good,One more thing and it's not understood.I need some help, maybe a shoulder from you.So numb and dead, not sure what to do.You found me there and I...

HAPPY!I still have a hint of sadness and nervousness butI'm hiding that away, I am very very happy right now :) :)I can't wait till April! Whoo!

I haven't cut in 86 days. Just sayin.Saturday will be 90 days and October 19thwill be 100 days, I'm not sure if I feel accomplishedor not. I think I've gone this long before and just started again.I...