converseoleander

I wish I was attracted to boys... :( I want my family to love me, I don't want to have to talk to Denise's homosexual friend, I don't want to be looked at like I'm less than a person because I happen...

Disorder | RatingParanoid: HighSchizoid: LowSchizotypal: Very HighAntisocial: HighBorderline: Very HighHistrionic: Very HighNarcissistic: HighAvoidant: Very HighDependent: Very...

Cut today... and just want to do it more.I want so badly to mess my arm up...One of the things I think about when it comes to the futureis how I can cut all I want, my parents wont bearound all the...

8 days clean but REALLY wanting it tonight, and imma drink soon.

A month without cutting, yayys :) I don't really have much to say. I have to work today at the fair from 11 to 7 so I'm dressed like a girl in little shorts, and striped tank top, and a cute little...

A month without cutting, yayys :) I don't really have much to say. I have to work today at the fair from 11 to 7 so I'm dressed like a girl in little shorts, and striped tank top, and a cute little...

Sometimes you meet people... people who mean the world to you, then you meet other people, people with the same thoughts and issues as yourself and it just makes you really really hurt for them...

So I told a woman I know, I've talked about here before on here, in my 'wonderwoman' journal... but I told her about my addiction to cutting. It's crazy but after 5 long, looooong years of fighting...

this goal might end tonight... god i wanna do it so bad.

It's been almost a month, 23 days? Give or take. It's been hard and there are some days where I just crave it but I'm getting a lot better. Well... at least I hope I am, the real tough nights haven't...

havent cut in 10 days but i smoked 5 cigarettes in a row tonight... and dint want to stop

I think it was may 5th but the last time i journaled it was may 3rd so i dont know exactly. today is may 8th so for sure 3 days clean... sounds bad but i think i can make it if i decide i truly want...

I've never felt so loved or wanted until I let her into my life, until I began to trust someone. I don't recall when the trust began, just that I felt connected to her. Like I needed her. And now I...

Tonights goal: Go to sleep by 9, or at least be in bed by then.

I don't really think about any difference between depression and anxiety, if I'm one or the other or both, I don't know. Today I can tell though, I'm okay, at no risk of suicide, though I did cut. I...