You give me hope... in spite of everything.

Sometimes you meet people... people who mean the world to you, then you meet other people, people with the same thoughts and issues as yourself and it just makes you really really hurt for them because you had hurt so much for yourself in the same situation, only your for yourself was actually hurting yourself, but when you meet this person you feel the need to help them, to cry out and say not to become like me! Just hurt so badly, not on the skin but within the heart and all you want to do is tell them that you understand. Though when they speak and vent, you don't, you hide, and wish later that you hadn't. So you go to that person who means the world to you, and tell them how this new person has affected you, and thats when they tell you how you have affected them. And suddenly life isn't real, suddenly your longing to feel something more than what you previously have, and all you can do is think about the person who you have only just met, cry for them, cry for the person who means the world to you, and cry for yourself. Just because you have never, not once, cried for yourself.
25 days clean by the way.