bean.flower

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• Anxiety
  

  did something crazy

  Posted by: bean.flower

  Last Reply: mangymoosemaine 12/03/2017

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  I decided to pierce my septum, got it professinally done and I actually feel amazing. Something I never thought I would do, always too scared to look different or to stand out in any way but this is something I wanted since I was 16. I'm so happy I did it. I nearly backed out I nearly went home but I stuck threw it. I forced myself threw it, and I'm so happy I did. There is a way I see myself, I've always looked boring and I'm tired of it. I want cool colorful hair, piercings, tattoos and I've...

• Depression
  

  thaknsgiving

  Posted by: bean.flower

  Last Reply: djchurn 11/23/2017

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  I had a panic attack last night, not due to the holiday but just because theres too much in front of me right now. Today I am supposed to go with my mom to aunts and then to my dads. I have decided im not going. I dont want to deal with people, I dont want to see anyone, I just cant. My mom said she isnt gonna argue with me if I want to be lazy and not go thats on me, but I'm not being lazy for not wanting to go. I'm not in the right headspace. I hate holidays. I'm not even making sense. I hate...

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  Joined New Group

  Posted by: bean.flower

  Posted: 11/23/2017

  bean.flower joined the group Depression.

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  thoughts...

  Posted by: bean.flower

  Posted: 11/21/2017

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  I'm always up past midnight, past 2 am. I get lost in thought, what am I doing? Am I okay? I feel like my depression and anxiety are getting better but then I think, are they really? or am I just seeing what I want to see? Did I ever actually have depression and anxiety, or was it really something I made up in my head like my sister and my friends always thought. I was diagnosed, but then again I was 14. My dad was on drugs and drinking and cheating, my mom was practically dying in front of me,...

• Anxiety
  

  I feel horrible

  Posted by: bean.flower

  Last Reply: Brooks 08/01/2017

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  I finally worked up the courage to go out with my dad and his new family, we went to zoo, it was alot of fun for my little sisters and my dad's girlfriend was very nice. Her father was there as well, I've been around my dad's girlfriend and my little half sisters alot more lately and I'm more comforatable around them but I've not really been around her father, he's an older man and he seems very nice but I didn't realize that I had offended him today. The grandfather of my little sisters bought...

• Anxiety
  

  I don't want to leave my room

  Posted by: bean.flower

  Last Reply: ShadowyLady25 06/28/2017

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  Hello, I'm new to this whole support group thing but I couldn't think of anything else. I am supposed to go on a trip with my dad and his family this weekend but I couldn't sleep last night. Thinking about how far I would be from my house. I have to look up where ever I go to see how far it is, what it's around, and how long it will take to get home, and my options for getting home since I don't drive. This place is over two hours away, I'd be gone all weekend and around people I don't know...

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  Joined New Group

  Posted by: bean.flower

  Posted: 06/23/2017

  bean.flower joined the group Anxiety.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: bean.flower

  Posted: 06/23/2017

  bean.flower became friends with TeamDS.