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Lately everything feels like it's too much. I thought that if I could get to my due date and get through I would feel a little better. That I would feel a little healed. Now it's only a few days away...

Lately everything feels like it's too much. I thought that if I could get to my due date and get through I would feel a little better. That I would feel a little healed. Now it's only a few days away...

As I went back and read over some of my journal posts, I realized that although it didn't feel like it at the time I have made progress on my goal. Although I am not completely at peace with what has...

I wrote last week that I was really terrified and unsure of whether I still really wanted to have a child. I have spent A LOT of time thinking about this. I don't know if I will ever really have THE...

The last 8 months have certainly been some of the hardest that I have ever been through. I know that without this site and you wonderful ladies that those 8 months would have been even more...

I feel like everytime I get my hopes up for something even something silly and small it gets taken away. My current temp poistion should have hired me last Friday, but came to me the week after...

I know that after a MC there a good days and bad days. That there are times when the pain feels like everything happened yesterday. I have had those days; they are horrible and lingering. This is not...

Weekend was OK. managed to distract myself on Saturday with gardening and a tricky tray auction. Was able to keep busy all day, so no time to dwell on other things. Sunday was a different story.The...

It's not like I don't feel sadness in some form everyday, but today the sadness is completely consuming. I feel so isolated and alone today even in my busy office. It's like I am in an invisible...

This weekend was going really well. My DH and I had a nice breakfast out on Saturday, and I spent the afternoon with my mom and brother. DH spent time with a friend. It's one of the 1st times in a...

Interview went pretty well. The office is really small, but the people seem nice and I am actually qualified for this job (unlike where I work now and know nothing) I have already gotten 2 calls from...

I am very discouraged today. Yesterday I felt a little better, I felt like I was finally after all this time, beginning to be able to really open up with DH about how I have been feeling. Today I...

Note to self. . . do not volunteer to host any more family gatherings for at least 3 months!!!!I had entirely too much face time with my dear MIL this weekend. A friend of hers (and someone also...

Last night was my last counseling session, and I had to say goodbye to my amazingly supportive counselor. As I have mentioned before the sessions were through a free volunteer service, and were...

Everday I wonder how much longer I can do this. It is so hard to explain to anyone sometimes. . . the way that I feel. I connect my loss so much with the loss of my job, and it makes everything more...