codependent

old habits die hard.   i'm screwing around on him again.   i'm miserable with him but don't want to jump in another relationship either.    this guy i'm screwing around on him with is very good...

He's been sick and a big baby.  Moms don't get sick. We keep going til we cant.  He is mad because I ate all of his sweets again.  He hung his towel on the door.  I throw it on the bed and tell...

So... i'm very shocked with myself right now.  There's a guy who started messaging me on fb on the first.  he's an ex-coworker of my brothers.  we started talking, getting to know each other,...

So I check Isaac's Mom's fb page just about everyday.  She added a picture I noticed just now of her and him.  It's like I want to cry but I can't!  Kinda frustrating..... He doesn't look good to...

Funny as it may sound I've read all the Fifty Shades books and love them!  As I'm on the first book for the second time I reminisce on times I spent with Isaac.  There was a time when he lived with...

Just found out my ex Johnny is getting married.  I'm not going to lie, it hurts to think he got over me and wanted to marry someone ELSE.  We were engaged and once i found out he cheated i left him...

So, my boyfriends brother, James who lives with us is an asshole.  He always has something negative to say.  I wish he'd move out already.  I was asking Billy earlier today who's car they were...

Here's a Mother's day to remember.  I went to meet Billy and his family today at a place to eat.  Spent most of the time waiting for them to get there, and once the whole clan was there, i was left...

So, i've been with Billy for 7 months now.   I love him to death.  It's just hard for me to get used to his family.  His family doesn't embrace me and make me feel welcome.  Well majority of...

So, i was looking at some things online, and tried to do some self help i guess, and i found this..... Moore, Forward and Buck believe that rejection is the trigger of obsessive love - also known as...

Believe it or not things have come to another rock bottom.  I'll start in a chronological order.... June 24th my apt was broken into.  My laptop that i just rec'd for Christmas was taken and all my...

i'm at a point where i'm seriously terrified that my life may be in danger.  the last time i had dreams like this was when i was with isaac. i remember back in 01 i had a dream i was already dead. ...

 am slightly scared at this point.  Isaac was in jail 4/28 and was released 6/24 the day of my burglary.  i was involved with a guy named Marcos at work at Convergys.  he's a user like my nephew...

I'm really trying not to let things get to me.  It's like one thing after another.  My dad was picked up by the ambulance Friday for having chest pains.  He had a hard time breathing, and i saw...

Well, Jan 4 i miscarried the baby.  I was devastated.  Isaac was too.  He's going through his phase right now where he's in another world.  His schizophrenia really needs to be treated...