Trying to Adjust

So, i've been with Billy for 7 months now.   I love him to death.  It's just hard for me to get used to his family.  His family doesn't embrace me and make me feel welcome.  Well majority of them anyway.  I'm trying really hard to get over this, but i've told friends before that if anything is going to pull us apart, it's his family.  His cousin Crystal is real demanding of his time and is controlling, overbearing and bossy.  She makes the smart ass remarks too.  I've recently been REALLY REALLY irritable and i dont know why.  Maybe i feel alone too.  My family is not out here in ABQ and the family i do have here i cant talk to.  James his brother acts like a little kid too when he doesnt get Billy's attention.  Maybe i'm the jealous one, i dont know.  I hate how we have to live with James and he cant move on and get his own place.  What's even WEIRDER is his family kisses each other on the lips when they see each other.  Yeah....  I even tried getting out of seeing his family one weekend but Billy said he wasnt going without me.  So i ended up going and was out of place and the outcast as usual.  Billy doesnt understand how i feel. HE says that maybe i'm the jealous one and maybe he's right.  I've been clinging to him but i've also let go.  BIlly's been working graves and his bro doesnt come home until late when BIlly's gone, which doesnt break my heart at all.   But now BIlly's back to days and i'll be fighting for his attention again.  Is it so wrong to have MY boyfriend to myself?  Now i know why Billy's stepdad doesnt want to live anywhere near their family.  It's too awkward.  I'm used to my family and my sister is in prison.  I miss her, and she doesnt write me back all the time.  I have to write her a couple times to get a response.  I'm going into another depression.  I am seeing the doctore monday thank God.  I need an increase in my dosage of prozac again.  I'm also starting another job which is real stressful so far.  It's another call center but a lot to remember and some sales.  A lot of pressure to reach our metrics everyday.  It's hard, but i will not fail!!!