garnet01

well, it's officially over for me now I'm moving on for good!!! i really didn't feel like going to the ceremony but my family was anxious to see me up there accepting my diploma so i put up with it,...

i haven't written in such a long time but I'm having such a major anxiety over what is supposed to be no big deal. my friend/secret unrequited love has finally called me to say that she's okay. i was...

SONG OF THE SOUL  I search for the song of the soulThe song that rests the restlessAnd calms the tempered breezeAnd brings about the nightAnd stirs our broken dreams I search for the song of the...

A broken soul that cry's up to the heavensa silent scream tha begs the sky'srain down on me and, save this dying heartrain down on me and,cast the darkness out... 

i'm starting to freak out. she still hasn't come back. it's been a month and a half and she hasnt returned. people just dont disappear without warning and not comeback. they're parents dont act...

i just recently heard this song, it really hit me...whataya want from me by Adam Lambert  Hey, slow it downWhataya want from meWhataya want from meYeah, I'm afraidWhataya want from meWhataya want...

my friend and i are kind of seperating for some unknown reason, but i'm letting it happen. she was always in charge of our friendship as i'm always so emotionally unstable and regularly unavailble....

i remeber when my cousin came into my room on one of my previous birthdays and saw me and my close friend under the covers together. we weren't doing anything, and i was probably only 14 or 15 at the...

it was nice. to look back what the world really means. maybe this feeling will go away soon enough. if i'm strong i know it will get better... 

i've been having the most vivid dreams lately.there always about the same things. myself in some sort of situation where i'm telling someone i know that i'm homosexual. there always understanding and...

watched a gay movie today, it was a funny one, the curiousity of chance, really liked it, made me laugh, and although i'm still in hiding, i felt a could relate. what i wouldn't give to just be out,...

i think evrything's alright now. i think i'm going to be okay. i talked to my friend's mother, and she said my friend was in pakistan, on a sudden trip. i can't believe she wouldn't call me. she knew...

i cant eat. i am, but it's forced, because i know i have to. i'm so anxious, i can hardly stop shaking sometimes, it's getting pretty bad. i think it's just the new semester. i havent had breakfast...

my portflio for ryerson university was due today and against all odds i got it in and completed with only 30 min to spare before the deadline. i dont feel releived though, i feel as though i'm...

maybe i was happier when I kept myself in the dark...