garnet01

i remeber when my cousin came into my room on one of my previous birthdays and saw me and my close friend under the covers together. we weren't doing anything, and i was probably only 14 or 15 at the...

it was nice. to look back what the world really means. maybe this feeling will go away soon enough. if i'm strong i know it will get better... 

i've been having the most vivid dreams lately.there always about the same things. myself in some sort of situation where i'm telling someone i know that i'm homosexual. there always understanding and...

watched a gay movie today, it was a funny one, the curiousity of chance, really liked it, made me laugh, and although i'm still in hiding, i felt a could relate. what i wouldn't give to just be out,...

i think evrything's alright now. i think i'm going to be okay. i talked to my friend's mother, and she said my friend was in pakistan, on a sudden trip. i can't believe she wouldn't call me. she knew...

i cant eat. i am, but it's forced, because i know i have to. i'm so anxious, i can hardly stop shaking sometimes, it's getting pretty bad. i think it's just the new semester. i havent had breakfast...

my portflio for ryerson university was due today and against all odds i got it in and completed with only 30 min to spare before the deadline. i dont feel releived though, i feel as though i'm...

maybe i was happier when I kept myself in the dark...

                   when school goes back to normal i'm sure i'll be okay. i'm not right now, but i'm sure i've just had too much time to think, which is never a good think if your...

I cant wait for exams and my portoflio to be over. I need a long break. A longer shower and to talk with my friends again. I've made a decision... I'm going to tell my crush/best friend that I'm a...

Don’t want to be this person anymore. Lost, confused, conflicted oh so conflicted. I dont know what i want, from here, from my life, my friends and family... i dont know what i want...

i dont know what wrong with her, my best friend. we haven't spoken, really spoken in weeks. i feel this great space between us. the classes we used to speak in, she now spends with another friend of...

Who are you?  You pretend to need me,  Try to influence, Beg to control me, But I say no. I turn you down And tell you to leave, But you stay.  I hate you,  Because of whom I am, ...

It's really rough right now, but this is apart of something i'm going to write... If the devil could cry, his tears would mimic hers.  Her body tense and weak and full of loss, she stood between...

 It's been a long time since I was honest with myself... it's bringing up emotions I've surpessed for a long time, not just about my sexuality, but also other issues in my life. I thought I was...