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I had a dream once while I was with the N and it came true.  It was an argument.  I was blown away when this happened.  I kept trying to stop him and tell him that I had dreamed this.  He was...

I knew that something was wrong in the relationship with the kids' dad.  At some point, I even realized he had a pornography addiction.  I stayed with him, ever faithful, trying to get him to seek...

I had my first attempt at trying to be social post divorce and well, maybe one of the first get-together's I've ever planned on my own that was not entirely family oriented.It went okay and it was a...

I still get upset when I think about it.  This man came into my life after I had started to recover and my children were still recovering from the sexual abuse of my daughter.  It was my first step...

My cousin and I were talking the other night about us.  We grew up as sisters, sharing all of life's major milestones.  She is one year and one day younger than me. She is one of my only remaining...

It is not always easy to be on the poor end of the scale, but we had a really nice night. We have no TV stations, can't even afford to rent a movie, let along get out of the house to do...

The ex-N was kind enough today to stop by my cousin's work to drop off a copy of the final divorce papers for me!  Isn't he sweet!!!  He's so special that we don't even have to wait for the postal...

It has been another long day.  I'm doing my best to breathe and stay focused on positivity. My feelings are hurt that after years of running around helping everyone, I am at rock bottom and...

I've not spent much time journaling here.  I've actually been so knocked off balance the last year, I've just been surviving.  I'm ready to really live again.  Part of my committment to myself is...

Wow, it's been four months since I managed to journal.  I'm just not so good at getting around to it.  I've had a little more time this week, things are slow before the mad final rush next week at...

For the first time in so many years, I am alone.  Even though I do get feelings of loneliness at times, I really think I am okay.  Of course, I've always thought too much and perhaps have a few...

At times, I feel so out of control.  Just of everything.  Some part of me realizes that control is just an illusion and that it mainly just makes us feel better.  The other part, really wishes for...

...that I really wonder.  I know many, many women do it all the time, but still I wonder. The past couple of weeks have just been a blur.  The constant whirlwind of finding my 13-year-old son a...

Bury all your secrets in my skinCome away with innocence and leave me with my sinsThe air around me still feels like a cageAnd love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage againSo if you love me...

As long as we continue to think we will be happy in the future, we will never be happy in the moment, and that is the same as saying that we will never be happy...