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At times, I feel so out of control.  Just of everything.  Some part of me realizes that control is just an illusion and that it mainly just makes us feel better.  The other part, really wishes for...

...that I really wonder.  I know many, many women do it all the time, but still I wonder. The past couple of weeks have just been a blur.  The constant whirlwind of finding my 13-year-old son a...

Bury all your secrets in my skinCome away with innocence and leave me with my sinsThe air around me still feels like a cageAnd love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage againSo if you love me...

As long as we continue to think we will be happy in the future, we will never be happy in the moment, and that is the same as saying that we will never be happy...

In the stillness of the hanging humidity of the night, hot words of anger being tossed between us, tempers flare and flash like a spark hitting the rising fumes of gasoline.You reach out, trying to...

A bright, beautiful soul, so full of hope and wonder stifled, smothered, beat and broken over time.  The soul bleeds out, not all at once, but slowly, slowly. There is no warning of getting to these...

Who wakes up early in the morning to see you up, even on three hours of sleep? Who checks on you during the day, to be sure you are okay or just to say, “I am thinking of you”? Who picks you up...

Once upon a time, I met an amazing man, such beautiful eyes and the greatest smile. We shared a dance, one sweet little kiss. We had a dinner with the most loving family I have seen; they felt like...

If you love only in order to be loved back - this is narcissistic love. Loving someone is not dependent upon emotional reciprocity. If your child stopped loving you - you do not stop loving him. You...

All of the times that I tried to believe in the unbelievable, even knowing the foolishness of it all, all of the harsh words back and forth, shooting for the dream, the one chance in a million that...

I basically made this decision...I am me and I am a beautiful creation. I may not keep the house as clean as it could be every day, but when I clean it....it is the cleanest house you have EVER seen....

I finally made it back, really back, I think. I kept popping in and then getting overwhelmed again. Now, I think I'm more back for real! I know I posted before that this has been a hard semester. ...

That just came up in a song :)  Definitely the long days, but more like exhausted nights.  I thought maybe son stress was putting me over the top, but I think this semester is just a rough one all...

I am very relieved that court went better than I expected.  I was seriously afraid the judge would end up ordering something that I could not comply with while remaining true to my values (such as...

I haven't been around much.  I want to, but I've just been exhausted.  I'm over the hump of week one back and the new schedule, so I think it will resolve soon.  I was in no way ready to go back...