Missinglisa

It is now January 1, 2011.  Lisa has been gone for over a year and I still can't believe it.  It seems more unreal than it did a year ago.  I am sitting here listening to music and avoiding going...

We survived Christmas better than we anticipated; we ate, laughed, opened presents - I think it was worse wondering how it was going to go.  Last year was a blur - we were in zombie mode.My...

Harvey, Cevyn, Andrew and Tiina are all here. We had our turkey dinner today as Cevyn and her dad will be having Christmas dinner with Harvey's dad tomorrow.  It is fine with me as Andrew and Tiina...

Our grand-daughter and son-in-law are en route to Calgary.  Their plane is an hour and a half late so we will be at the airport at midnight. It is still hard to comprehend that Lisa won't be with...

I spent Friday and Saturday crying.  Today was a bit better.  Our friends came last evening and are staying until tomorrow.  It helps to think about other things.The phone rang during dinner...

We began our Christmas shopping to-day.  I am determined to maintain some of the traditions that Lisa initiated after Cevyn was born.  One is filling everyone's stocking with socks, candy and other...

Better late than never.  After a weepy day yesterday, I had a good day today.  Lisa's friend drove down from Red Deer and we went for lunch.  We had a really nice visit with laughter and tears and...

We were going through the closet today; trying to get make room to get in to it.  I came across some of Lisa's school and after school stuff - her assignments, her medals from running, her...

It took me awhile to remember it is Monday!  Without work outside, the days flow in to one another.  I had to think about what to smile about. I guess the beautiful sunshine is it today.  It is...

I made it through Lisa's first Angel Date.  I cried most of the day, this morning literally on Joe's shoulder.  My neighbour asked if I wanted to go for a walk - we did and stopped for lunch.  Joe...

On Thursday, our son called and asked if we could go to Edmonton as their dog, Data, was failing and would be going to the vet.  We all knew what that likely would mean.  His wife Tiina got Data...

Today has not been a good day.  I have been crying for most of it.  When I try to go to bed, I start to cry.Perhaps it is because it's almost a year since Lisa left and another Christmas without...

So it is Monday again.  I am finding it hard to be smiley this morning!  We are in the midst of a deep freeze!  It is windy and miserable outside!I guess the green smiley part is that I am indoors...

It is Monday again!  What am I smiling about? I am smiling because I have a fantastic, though very small nuclear family.  I have caring, supportive, and patient friends.  They are there when I...

It has been an emotional couple of weeks.  I am so glad that Tiina is doing so well.  On Wednesay night, I went to my second support group meeting.  It was okay but I will have to wait and see how...