One Year 5/8/09

Yesterday marked as one year since my what could have been a fatal accident so I guess you could call it a near death experience. I really wish I had gone to either the nurse or my guidance counselor after it happened. I would probably not have my shoulder as messed up as it is now (I have multi directional instability and it's too fucked up for surgery to even help a lil bit) and I wouldn't be mentally damaged. That day haunts me. I really want to go back to that school and tell the guidance counselor what happened. The teacher that was there who was in charge when it happened told me not to tell anyone and didn't want me to go to the nurse even though I was shaking like a leaf and in complete shock just because she and an other student didn't want to get into any trouble. I want to get the guts to do it. but I don't know if I can. it's been haunting me ever since it happened