TheCalligrapher
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- I have a set of walls I've built up in my life that are impossible to reconcile for me. I'm on meds and I'm in therapy but everyone just tells me everything is my choice and my problems but I've determined I ddon'twant to cause crisis to...
- When I really want to leave I find dark websites of people jumping from the golden gold bridge or suffocating themselves with carbon monoxide. I don't mean to but I feel that's my only way out.
- Will it matter? Will I matter? Would it matter if I killed myself in 509 years. Not 10, not 20, not in my life or the lives of my loved ones. 500 years ago did some peasant in Europe or farmer in China matter today? Sure, I...
- The fear of hurting them is all that keeps me from killing myself but at the same time they are in a complete spiral of crises that lead me to wish I was not alive. I can't stand it.
- I still feel like I don't want to be alive. I wish and prefer that I could fall asleep and never wake up. I hate the way that I live and how I spend my life and I wish I was gone. I never have enought time. My headaches come every...
- I cant say no. I'm not allowed to say no. My team can say no to me. Other teams can say no and pick and choose but I am the last resort for anything that is an ask at our company. I can't say, "no that should be someone else's...
- I'm blowing up. The anxiety and concern is exploding right now. I keep returning to Mary who is my contact onn the national suicide prevention chatline. I haven't seen my doc in a few days.I've lost friends in the last 24 hours, I can't...
- I've been selling stuff on eBay, USN, and Craigslist. I opened an account and I'm planning to will the money to the kids. I closed off talking to my friends on texting and online. I'm still finishing the house for some reason but I...
- I don't know whether to leave and face that pain or take my life and end all the pain. Leaving throws my world into a turmoil that can't be closed again. Taking my life pulls me out of the issue. It is selfish to those left behind but...
- I am.realizing im stuck I can't reinvent myself and I can't leave without hurting anyone . I'm completely stuck I won't be able to leave without hurting a lot of people and if I stay I continue to spiral I to depression. I...
- She has emotional problems and today she said she wants nothing to do with anyone in her former life. I keep wondering if it's me.Yet another nail in the coffin. I'm spending more and more time on the dark websites lately.
- I'm so tired of decisions, of expectations, of medications, of pretending and of hiding. I don't want to continue. I hate my leadership role and I hate added responsibility. I'm tired of laughing andaking jokes. I just want the pain...
- I've been treated for a long time now. I am.on meds and have a psychiatrist and therapist both but I am back to feeling like I want to die. My work is a job others dream of; I have 18 direct reports, important work, hundreds of meetings...
- Anytime I search for information about suicide, how to, best ways, ways to ensure my family would still get insurance, all I find are the flagged "suicide prevention sites" with smarmy stories about what it does to family and friends. Nothing...