TheCalligrapher
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- It's hard to say why. .mostly I'm not secure enough to just say no. I won't stop deploy caring about the feeli ng s of others. I don't want to disappoint anyone. when I suggest getting together to someone, if they make an inference that...
- I told a hard truth. I was honest in the face of disappointing someone and it wasn't that bad. I think one of the worst places.I've lied was always to avoid disappointing someone.
- my family is falling apart and I'm still lying. I feel like I still try to please people and that takes me places that make me lie to avoid hurting others. I didn't sleep at all.
- I don't want to continue. I get so down I don't feel like doing anything. I get down about the routine, I get down about having to live with the memory of lies, I get down about the sense that there is nothing I can ever do to fix the past. I...
- I wonder if it manifests itself and sticks around and holds onto each lie. like a creepy demon that settles in and has lies to hold onto. I can't believe how sad I feel when I think of all the lies and how impossible it is to forgive myself.
- I started off shaky and feeling bad then went to feeling good now back to feeling bad and shaky again. it usually doesn't come twice in a day
- It's been a very shaky day for me. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid of what I don't. know. when will a lie catch up to me from my past that I've forgotten about. what will come.next. have I made any mistakes I don't even remember.
- I have seen others post here when you don't want to tell others you are down. you don't want to lie when Rey ask how are you but you don't want to say, "I'm so sad I've ruined all the gold things in my life by lying"
- I completely lost one of my closest and dearest friends. this person meant the world to me and I can't bear the lost trust. it's completely me and I've had this happen before losing people and then never hearing from them again but this one...
- my spouse is out of town. there are problems here with OCD and hoarding. I threw away a bunch of trash. I know there will be an attack, nitpicking and mean statements but it felt good. I wont lie. I'll say I prefer not to talk about it...
- errors keep hapoening. I read about a new technique to answer when you can't convince someone to stop pushing you and you feel pressured to make up a lie excuse. i often get pressured to volunteer or pushed by my spouse. an example is...
- I'm not doing this forum any good. I'm not lying I'm just getting myself down abiut all the relationships I've ruined and that's a place I've gone in periods my whole life. the lies come when I try to balance others lives against mine and then...
- I don't think that my friends understand that it's not their forgiveness that holds me back. it's my own. I can't let go of it. my dream is to build a time machine and warn my younger self.
- I'm just so sad. I feel I've wrecked so many lives and therr is simply no way to erase this. It's so very hard to even find a glimmer if hope or happiness.
- I leave things in conversations open and indirect. I am challenged by the following type of conversation paraphrased: friend says, "is your schedule free" me, "yes it looks like things are opening up" friend, "so that means you'll have more...