Hi! I'm Kristen. I'm a 38 year old mother of 3, a 21 year old son, and my daughters are 5 and 7. My husband who I've been with since i was 20 passed away about 2 years ago in an accident with a drunk driver. I live in a small mountain town and am a special education teacher. I've met some wonderful people here.

I'm Yvonne. I lost my partner in August 2017 to kidney cancer at age 55. He suffered very badly for 8 months and this still gives me nightmares. He was my first love when we were kids and then we found each other again 5 years ago. He was my protector, my soulmate, my best friend and I miss him; but I also miss me, the happy me, the loving life me. I am doing everything I can to get some of that back. This group is my biggest source of support.

I'm Michele. I lost my 48 yr old husband to carcinoid cancer. It has been a very lonely journey for me. I have one grown daughter. Finding this support group has been a blessing for me.

Hello all, my name is Penny and I lost my husband of 43 years in June 2017. I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that he is gone forever. I tried to make my sister understand by comparing it to the concept of infinity. It seems impossible that my best friend is gone forever from my life. We did everything together and I feel so lost without him. We knew the end was coming as he had been battling esophageal cancer for four years and just finally could not fight anymore. I have two sons and friends but still feel so lost and alone. I had not reached out to any support groups in my area because they are all so generic and I feel that the loss of a beloved spouse is very unique. I lost both parents and a sister that I was very close to but those losses cannot compare to the loss of my soulmate. This is my first post to this group but please know that reading your posts has helped me to feel that I am not so alone.

My name is Stephen and I've only come to this group in the last few weeks, though I recently hit the six month point of membership in this club no one asks to join. Dana and I had just recently celebrated 25 years of marriage and the birth of our second grandchild. I'm stationed on the coast of California, but she was back home in Nebraska since June waiting for the baby and then stayed on after. She finally missed the dogs enough to come home to me on Labor Day weekend. I picked her up on Friday during a bizarre triple-digit heat wave that along with the stress of travel (and the high dose of prednisone for inflammation of her temporal artery) seemed to explain how miserable she was. She was a frequent flyer at the ER since her coronary artery stent five years before and an apparent mini-stroke last year, but her symptoms were all too easy to explain away. Besides, she had an appointment with the cardiologist at 0930 on Tuesday and we could figure it out then, right? We didn't keep that appointment. Despite heroic efforts by EMS and the ER docs, she died that morning about 0530. She was my best friend and I still love her more each day than I did the day before. She gave of her heart until her heart just had no more to give. I miss her every day, but I'm so grateful to have found this group... this community.

Hi I’m Judy. My husband of 51 years passed away on February 4,2018. I have 2 devoted sons and their families. No matter how they try to comfort me, as I do them in the loss of their dad and grandpa, there is such a lost feeling within me. I miss him and there is such a cold feeling in this house that we called our home.

Thought it might be time to bump this one back up as we've had about 100 people join since this was put up, and I'd like to see who is here.

Love and Hugs,
Martha

I lost my husband on April 19th, we were married 39 years. He was the love of my life. We have 2 sons 38 and 35. My husband and I were in an ICU out of town for 7 months, I am thankful that he is no longer suffering but I miss him so very much. Most days I don't even want to get out of bed. I thought I was doing ok but I am not at all. I don't know how I can handle the rest of my life without him.

I am Rosegold/Connie. Lost my beloved Keith to pancreatic cancer. He passed away 3/26/18, just 26 days from the time he was diagnosed. I am still very much in denial. We have been together 12years, married for 5 years. No kids. He was only 55. Gone too soon...he was and will always be the love of my life. My life is so empty without him.

I am sorry to see all the new comers but glad you found DS. I'm LMJ90/ Lisa. I lost my husband in October of 2014. Suddenly and very unexpectedly. He was 44. We had been together since high school and we were married 23 years at the time of his death. Altogether 25 years isn't nearly enough. I miss him every day and most of the days are long and hard. I miss being a couple and I miss having him here with me. Some days are ok and some are still very emotional. I found DS after an internet search. I have no support groups in my area and I have a very small family circle. DS has shown me that I am not alone. I come to gain support and friendship and I want to help others if I can. sometimes just a word or two is the difference for someone. Hugs to all
Lisa

Hi, I am Candace. I lost my beloved Mike on April 23rd, 2018. I found him when I came home from work. He had been battling end state renal failure and had started home hemo dialysis and was doing great. The Thursday before he passed the doctor reduced 1 day a week that he had to do the dialysis. He was so excited and feeling upbeat. And then something happened, and he died suddenly the following Monday. The coroner ruled it a massive heart attack. I have been lost ever since. I was grieving while his kidneys were failing, but we had such hope he would live on. He was only 58. We would have been married 25 years in November. He was truly the love of my life and my rock. We could not have children, but only our fur babies (cats). We are all missing our Mike. It is so hard to go to work, but I have to. If I did not have to work, I would just mope. I am seeing a grief counselor who is helping. The first one I went to was mean, but this new one is amazing. I am also joining a grief support group, but so far I have not met others who have lost a spouse or life partner. This group looks like a lifesaver.

Travelgal55 My name is Louine and my husband, Bob, had a root canal which became infected 13 months later. The "dentist" cleaned it out and re-did it and gave him 10 days of antibiotics, but then he was never rechecked. Well, he started getting tired and his doctor wouldn't listen to him to check to see if it was his root canal infected again. They said "impossible!" He had another appt. with the same doctor (yes, why didn't he seek another opinion? That is what I asked him) I had to take him to the ER two days before that appt and he never came home! He got sepsis from that root canal and I spent every day for almost 4 months with him in the ICU always believing that he would recover and come home, but it was not to be :( He passed on 5/2/18 surrounded by his loving family. It is true that you don't realize how good you have it until your best friend, provider, lover, etc is taken from you. I miss him with all of my heart and cannot stand being alone in our home. I cry at the drop of a hat and I never know when it will start. I am sorry for everyone in this group's loss but I am finding comfort that others know and experience this unique pain that I am going through. I feel like this grief will never end and it is taking a toll on me physically. The only way I can get to sleep at night is with plenty of wine - and then it is only 3 hours. Sorry this is so long. My thought processes are not what they used to be either.

Hi. I am Sharon and a long time member of daily strength. I lost my husband and high school sweetheart 11 years ago tomorrow to lung cancer. After 5+ years I found the strength to go to lunch with a guy who's sister graduated with me.. Once there I discovered his wife had died the day before my husband. We began to comfort each other with stories of our life. It was a friendship exclusively. Last November I lost my second husband. This time to a heart attack.

Hi. I am Sharon and a long time member of daily strength. I lost my husband and high school sweetheart 11 years ago tomorrow to lung cancer. After 5+ years I found the strength to go to lunch with a guy who's sister graduated with me.. Once there I discovered his wife had died the day before my husband. We began to comfort each other with stories of our life. It was a friendship exclusively. Last November I lost my second husband. This time to a heart attack.

On 10/14/17 my wife of 27 years died in my arms of a PE at the age of 46! I struggle to find happiness in anything, i mean absolutly nothing brings me joy! I have gone to a Grief support group for several months, and think i will stop going. Its a group of about 25, and I am the only man. Of course it feels good to verbalize your feelings with others also in pain, but what is disturbing to me is that there are a handful of people there who are 3-6 years post loss and say they feel no better and in some aspects feel worse! When they share their pain, I feel hopeless in my own "recovery".

I can't sleep, can't focus, cranky as hell, and im keeping it all in.... I did just this week start to take a low dose of Prozac to see if it helps me.

My family consits of her parents and my adult son, all of whom i think are as bad as me!

Anyone else not "getting something" out of support, or do i just have a irrelevant group for my situation?