Hi I'm Sharon I lost my childhood sweetheart 7 months today, from sudden cardiac arrest, no symptoms, no warning. So still in shock and dealing with it on a day by day basis. I have two gorgeous girls and they have been my saving grace.I joined this group as I am in the UK currently staying with family. Sending lots of hugs to everyone - what a horrible journey.

bumping for new members who have recently joined us

Hi, I'm CrazyNewLife/Debby. My husband and the love of my life for 32 years passed away suddenly on January 3, 2018 from a heart attack. This is most definitely the hardest journey I've ever been "forced" to take. We have 4 adult daughters,, 12 grandchildren and 2 great grandchildren. I love each and every one of them so much and they've all been trying to stay close with me but I miss Nelson so much that nothing seems to cheer me up. I do absolutely nothing day in and day out unless it's just to run a quick errand. Will I ever find my "old" self again? Will I ever get out of this awful funk? All I want is for Nelson to come back to me.

I'm probably here on this site because I feel the need to give back and try to help the newly widowed. People were kind to me when I lost Bob, my husband of 40 years in 2006. He had a massive stroke and passed away six days later. He was 68. I'll never forget how terrible I felt. I cried for two years even though I wanted to be strong. He was my world and My Love. Our three children were wonderful but they had their jobs and lives to live. Gradually I healed and began to start to like my life. I volunteered at The Ronald McDonald house. I met wonderful widowed friends through a bereavement group and at a dance for single seniors. I live in Florida where winters are full of activity. I got the most I could out of life for several years and made it a point to enjoy. My health began to change with Lung Cancer in 2014. I had surgery and thirty radiation treatments followed.. I'm actually doing pretty good. My last scan in January was clear and My next oncologist appointment is not for a year. I really missed Bob while I went through that ordeal but in another way I'm glad he didn't have to see it.
As of now my life is peaceful. I have loving friends and family and am Thankful for each beautiful day. Dolores

I'm Joanna and I met my husband at the gym about 6 years ago. We had each been through very painful divorces and were so grateful to be given a second chance at love. We were married 4 1/2 years. He exercised daily and never smoked and was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer in April of 2017. He died on January 6. He was the kindest, most loving man I have ever known, and I am completely lost. He would be crushed to know that losing him hurt me this bad. He protected my heart in every way. Our marriage was wonderful, just way too short.

Hi I am Jeff I lost my wife Michele september 17 2017 very suddenly to a brain aneurysm.

hi my name is neddie, just joined today, my husband/best friend Sean Passed suddenly on jan 1 2013. it was a brain aneurysm. he was an organ donor and I have met 1 person who received an organ. he is doing well as another person I have met by mail who is also doing well. my heart still hurts everyday, but knowing that he left this earth giving the gift of life to others helps me and my family more than I could ever put into words.

Hello, I'm Momster18/Pat.
I lost my sweet husband of 30 years 18 months ago. I thought I was handling things fine, but the past couple weeks have found me having anxiety and panic attacks. I was relieved to find this group.

My husband died August 21, 2016, first a ruptured colon with a diagnosis of stage 4 colon cancer. It was a devastating, traumatic experience, he was gone in less than 5 months. I have been coming to this site almost everyday since Dec 29, 2016. To all of you Thank you for sharing your stories, only those who have lost their spouse truly understand.

Hello,, On 11/11/2017 while driving home from Mississippi one Saturday afternoon my husband Barry had a stroke . We waited over 20 minutes for an ambulance. Within two hours of having the stroke at the age of 54 he passed away. The worst thing that could ever happen to me has happened

To years ago I suffered a severe depression. For months 24 hours 7 days a week, my mind was tormented with suicidal thoughts. Thoughts of how I could take my life . I did not want to take my life but the thoughts consumed me. The doctors could not regulate my medicine. I could not sleep. It was the most torturous thing I've ever been through. Barry and I prayed and cried and prayed and cried but nothing . My husband was a strong man of God he would get up at three and four in the morning to go to the church to pray for me before he went to work . I would have dreams at night of myself having passed away. I would see my husband being so broken and hurt and people coming to visit him at the house because I had passed away and how sad he was . When I would wake up this would give me just enough strength to fight one more day. I didn't want him to be alone and going through the pain and hurt of me not being with him .

Now two years later here I am the one at the house broken hurt scared and lonely. Everyone's coming to the house to visit me because he's passed away . I trust God I truly do. But I do ask God why did you keep me alive just to take him to years later ? . I have found myself so many nights asking God to please take me so I can be with him . I don't understand God's ways . But I do trust him. I don't have to like it . I just trust him. But the pain is so deep and it gets deeper and wider every day.

I have also found that you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have .

I'm Brad, this is my first post. I lost my beautiful wife to a 15 month battle with metastatic breast cancer on Jan. 22/18 at the young age of 46. She had the most beautiful smile and joy in filled her heart. An infectious personality and a fantastic attitude towards everything and everyone. Even her battle was "only a bump in the road" according to her. Cancer took so much from us!! I miss her so much! As much as my heart breaks, I know she is pain free and at peace finally.

I am so sorry any of you needed to be here, but I hope being here will help you as it helped me. Like love, grief is universal. Welcome.

Love and Hugs,
Martha

I have been lurking for a while. I lost my husband 6 months ago after a four and a half year battle with cancer. We were married 35 years. Some days the tears just won't stop.

I am Sosammy/Mary. I lost my husband on Oct. 19 to a sudden heart attack. He had just got a clean bill of health from the dr. that summer after I had finally talked him into getting a physical. He had major dental surgery 2 weeks before his heart attack. Who knew that there is an increased chance of heart attacks and strokes after dental surgery. If we had known I would have told him don't do it. He was in ICU for 2 days before the dr said there is no brain activity. Making the decision to take him off life support was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.

I'm April and I lost my best friend and beloved husband 1 month ago today. It seems surreal and I keep waiting to wake up from a bad dream. He was my entire world. He would expect me to be strong and go on but he was my strength and anytime I try to imagine my life without him I can't even breathe. Like someone before me commented, I would be ok to lay my head down and never wake up again but it would cause our children more pain. I live in a fog daily and really don't have the will to live. I hope that finding this support group will help.