i'm so sorry you are suffering so much....you have all my empathy.

i have 90% pure obsessional OCD,and i am ruminating all the time.

it is maddening.

i have a wonderful therapist and we keep trying me on different meds,but nothing seems to really touch it.

i'm sorry i haven't been of any help,but in the least of things please know you are not alone in this.

Thank you silverlight. I appreciate your response. There have been long periods of time that I've had success coping with this disorder. I don't take any medications anymore. OCD really trips you up and sometimes it's hard to know what to do. Thanks again, I'm here if you need to talk.

EMORY- YES! I've actually said on a few occasions lately that I feel like I'm dying inside. So I DO KNOW how you feel. My med's don't seem to help with it much, so I'm always searching for other things I can do like diet, exercise, reading, writing, music, etc. These all help. Anything to distract me from the thoughts. I'm sure you have your own coping mechanisms, but it sounds like they are not working well, so you might want to consider trying med's again, even if temporarily through the rough spots? They have me on Hydroxymine Pamoate to take as needed. Right now I'm taking ever 6 hours but feel I can probably start cutting back on that now.

Another thought is, do you have a pet? My dog helps more than most humans can :-)

For anyone struggling with OCD, but especially Pure O and scrupulosity, I recommend reading The Imp of the Mind. The cheapest copy for purchase I see on Amazon is $9.68, but I'd suggest this one...
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(I did not leave that a fully intact link because I haven't reread the ToS lately and cannot remember if they are allowed. So copy and past to your URL or search box and appropriately replace the word DOT).

I do know how you feel, and it's simply exhausting. I am constantly fighting my ocd, trying to resist urges etc. By the time night comes, I'm so tired from counting and doing all my rituals, but the moment I try sleep it starts all over. It severely impacts my day to day life. I can't offer you any solutions, just know that you are not alone in your struggles. Should I ever figure out a coping mechanism I will share with you. Good luck.

I don't know if this is a big help, but regarding getting to sleep - Every night I write down on a little piece of paper everything that I have to do the next day, the next few days, etc. And for some reason, putting it on paper and getting it out of my mind, and knowing that it is written down so that I won't forget anything.... really puts my mind at ease to fall asleep. I do this every night, even if I don't have a lot to write down. For me, this helps me to get to sleep.

And another thing that I saw online recently, if you are worried if you left the stove on, did you lock the door, leave the curling iron plugged in, etc., is to take a picture of the stove OFF and the door dead bolted, etc., take the picture on your phone, before you leave your house. For some reassurance. I haven't tried this yet, but I just thought I would share it.

Thank you all for your support and kindness. I'm here to talk if you ever need to.