Paris - sorry that you have an additional two week wait

I am happy to be halfway through my two week wait. One more week till test day. I can't wait. I'm back at work and keeping very busy so hopefully the weekend will fly by.

Shazette that's great news! Almost there!! Any urges to test yet??

I freaked out a little this morning because my nipples don't hurt anymore and I haven't felt any cramps or twinges. I was going to test to know for sure but I decided I don't want to know before Tuesday. Can't believe I'm driving myself crazy with only 2 days left. I was doing so good at waiting

Shazette, so tomorrow is the big day?! Keep us posted! Can't wait to hear about ur BFP!!

I got a BFN

I'm so sorry to hear your news Shazzette. I am all too familiar with the BFN, and I know there isn't really anything that makes it feel better except for time. Let me know if you need anything. An ear to vent to, anything at all.

Shazette, I am so sorry to hear about the BFN. I have been through it twice and I know that nothing or no one could help me feel better, except time, like heather said. Take the time to grieve then begin focusing on the next cycle. I am also here if you need any kind of support, I mean it. Hugs.

Thanks Heather and Paris. I'm doing much better now. I never imagined this would hurt so much. Im not sure what's next. I don't think I'm ready to do another round right now if at all.

Hi ladies. My PGD results came back: Only 1 out of my 11 (great quality) embryos is unaffected. I got the news on Thursday, I've been in a daze since then. I'm completely devastated, I mean what are the chances of only 1 being viable?! I feel like this is just not meant for me anymore. I dedicated almost 4 months of my life to this, changed my entire lifestyle, gave up on my social life, threw away over $30,000 all for nothing!

Now I'm back at square one. After crying my eyes out for almost 2 days, I am exploring my options:

1. Jump into IVF #3 (which terrifies me because of the long term effects of the hormones. I had decided IVF #2 would be my last. I thought I'd get at least 4/5 viable embryos out of this cycle to create our little family and never have to go through IVF again.)

2. Transfer the one embryo we have (but we want more than one child so IVF #3 is inevitable. That being the case, I'd rather do it now rather than later due to getting older and diminishing egg quality and quantity)

3. I am entertaining the idea of trying naturally. My husbands condition is dominant so we have 50% chance of passing it on to our child. But I'm just wondering: Let's say our child is affected by this condition, how difficult is it (emotionally) to terminate a pregnancy at 11 weeks? I feel like it will be heart wrenching. I feel like I will not allow myself to connect with the baby for those 11 weeks because I will not know it's fate. But what if despite trying not to bond with the baby, I become attached. Then I have to terminate. I don't know if I can endure all this.

Shazette, I am so sorry for you BFN, it is unimaginable how it feels. I hope you are feeling better! Keeping you in my prayers!

Paris, ivf is so terrifying and I am so sorry for what you are going through. If you have one good quality embryo, why dont you try to transfer it, then try naturally? I know time is not our friend and that is the main issue with all of this. I found out that last cycle my egg quality was not that good, which surprised my doctor because of my age. But I hope that you and your husband can decide whats best for you guys and I am keeping you in my prayers!

Paris - I'm so sorry you are going through all of that. So many decisions to make, it can not be easy.
On a positive note, one good embryo is all it takes. Could you be happy with one healthy child?
I will pray that the answers are revealed to you.

Thanks everyone for your support. I am doing a lot better now. We had a consultation with the doctor on Tuesday to look at what may have gone wrong and how they would adjust for next cycle.

The response from my ovaries wasn't good so they are thinking there is an ovarian reserve problem because my FSH was elevated. They want me to take some supplements to improve egg quality and they want me to try again very soon because of the ovarian reserve.

My husband and I have been discussing everyday and we can't come to a decision if we want to do a 2nd cycle. So that is our current situation trying to figure out if we can do this again and if we should do it again.

Shazette, I had a similar situation. As you now I too had a failed cycle in February and it was found that my egg quality was not that great (fair in their words). My doctor was surprised because of my age (31) and suggested some vitamins to assist with egg quality. I did decide to do another cycle, because he discussed with me that time is not our friend and if I am emotionally ready, to try again. We decided too and I just started my shots yesterday. As far as the vitamins, I was taking 600mg of CoQ10 everyday, fish oil, plus my prenatal vitamins. I also had my husband begin fish oil and 200mg of CoQ10 as well (as we have infertility on both sides). I had to stop taking the vitamins when I started my stim, but I am hopeful that it will improve the quality, even though it was only for a couple of weeks. Good luck to you and am always here if you need to talk!