Have you seen a therapist? Maybe medication might help you.
There is hope.

Heyyy , I know exactly how you feel I start feeling that when I was a kid , but after I lost my brother it got worst !! Now that I am an adult I just feel like ders no meaning , but I’m trying to get as much help as I can I’m trying to get an therapist but right now I’m on medication it works most the time but they do have different doses!

At times I feel like that. But I've been keeping busy so those thoughts have stayed away.
Maybe do that, keep yourself busy so you won't think like that. I do a lot of volunteering and that really helps me.

Thank you all for your replies. It helps just to know that I’m not alone.

I’m tired of therapy and meds and doctors and everything else that’s supposed to help. I’m just tired of being here in this stupid planet that’s becoming more horrible every day. I wish I didn’t have a child relying on me because I could just end it all.

I lost interests in many things too. Not interested in watching TVs or moives anymore. There are cheap ways to entertain. But now I feel stronger. I think I can get a job. If I can make some money, maybe I will not feel so meaningless . Cherrs!

Thank you for all of your replies. I hope all of you find peace in your lives. I mean that.

Something is off balance with you. Do you exercise? How old is your son? Can you put him in a stroller or if he's older, let him ride his bike while you walk or jog? What are/were your favorite things to do? In lieu of medicine, have you ever tried St. John's Wart? I remember being on medication for depression and OCD and just feeling really down so I bought some St. John's Wart and it was making a difference but then I read that you can't take it with Prozac. Ask your pharmacist about it. It's in the vitamin aisle.

This is is how I feel lately.

Restful, most of us know exactly how you feel. You are not alone. I know it’s a cruel affliction but we will get through it. Peace my brother.

I can relate. im going through a break up in a unhealthy but very close relationship on top of losing my best and only friend im going through a fourth nervous breakdown, job problems as well as so many things at once. i can relate to jot wanting to get up as well as having lost all joy in things. Having no close friendships and having zero success in trying the millions of depression related medications. The only ones that help are for an intense panic disorder ive had since a child but im feeling dependent and wanting to just get on top of things but i just don't know how many more years of going from moderatley depressed to being like i am now which is very seriously diblitating deppression. im off to a psyc appointment today but don't even know how to explain things correctly. I hate the side effects or worseing ones and the other which is taking medication that does nothing. im feeling really at the end of the rope with trying and failing. i hope you feel better

All your replies mean a lot to me because I feel completely isolated with this. There’s literally nobody I can turn to who truly understands real depression. I even emailed and called my therapists office and haven’t heard back from them. I’ve often felt like my brother in law would probably be a better father figure for my son than I am. He’s a very optimistic guy and is fun to be around. I just think if I died he would be a good substitute.

Thank you all for reminding me that I am not the only one suffering with this. I don’t have anyone else to turn to because nobody I know really understands depression. Even my therapists office won’t call me back after I’ve left two messages for them.

My therapist takes days to get back to my texts. Luckily, I am just letting her know that I am doing okay. You may want to change therapists. It sounds like you are in pretty dire need of some sessions. I am again going to suggest some form of exercise. Your cable provider might have some exercise videos or you can find them on YouTube. Count your blessings that you have a child. I have loved children since I was a safety patrol in 6th grade. I never got married or had kids. I believe that God put a lot of children in my life for that reason. Your son is counting on you to pull it together. So do something proactive today. Call your therapist a third time. The squeaky wheel gets the oil. I have had numerous nervous breakdowns but I do what I can to overcome them. I am not perfect. My house is a mess and I can't bring myself to do much more than clean a fork and dish to eat. I guess I need to listen to my own advice. Years and years ago, I made up a game where I pick up 5 things in the morning and 5 things at night. At the end of the week you will pick up at least 70 things but you can become more motivated as you go. You write well. You obviously are intelligent. Look on YouTube for motivational videos. Mel Robbins is good. She has a 5 second rule that changed her life. If your therapist doesn't get back to you and you need to talk, send me a message and I will call you.

https://youtu.be/Guqbbz-S43k