I wasn't allowed to date at all growing up. After graduating high school a few years later I met my first love. He was the absolute love of my life. We dated for 6 months and then we were engaged. We got married a year later. It was the happiest day of my life, the first year of marriage was great we both decided to wait for a few years before we wanted to start a family so we could enjoy being together as husband and wife. Towards the end of our second year things started to get rough in our marriage I got really depressed and couldn't work for a while he was always coming home late from work or leaving real early for work. He started sneaking around talking to other women, putting me down, calling me names, etc I found out that he had cheated and he was leaving me it hit me like a ton of bricks I was so devastated. He eventually apologized and I begged for him to come back I was lost with out him. I forgave him and he moved back home. Even though I forgave him I still could not let it go but I tried to block it out towards the end of our 3 year of marriage he told me that he was not attracted to me anymore nor was he in love with me. I gained so much weight because I was going through depression (still am). He called th police and had me kicked out of our apartment we shared together his words were I just need a break and figure out what to do. This was 10/28/16 on 10/29/16 he moved in his new girlfriend and her child in the next day. They had been seeing each other while we were still physically together. I ended up paying 5000 for a divorce in 2018 and 2 weeks after it was done he got remarried and now the have child together. I found out about 6 months after our divorce he was cheating on me the whole time we were together even in the beginning.