Honestly I’ve had the same thoughts about wanting to get cancer and let it kill me. But I’m pretty confident that’s God has a plan and a purpose for me since I’ve survived multiple suicide attempts.
Love and hugs to you xoxoxoxo

Same to you as well kisses2016. Thanks

I have wished for cancer too. I must say. If I get it, then I get it. I know that cancer cells are in everyone's body. But when something goes wrong in the cells, and the cancer cells are not killed....then you get cancer.

It's why when you get older, your cells are not functioning correctly and get "lazy" then you get cancer.

For guys the Cadillac of cancers is prostate cancer. If there was a cancer to get, prostate would be it. If you monitor your PSA closely then you can nip that one in the bud. My dad had prostate cancer. He watches his medical results like a hawk.

Me, I really don't care about health records. If I get something, I get something. I should go in for blood work. Meh.

My dad had his prostate out, it was encapsulated. So it did not spread. Hes got a tad of cancer (a bone tumor) on his hip though.

Pancreatic and liver cancers are bad news. The Pancreas, I don't think can be transplanted. its too soft and mushy. Livers can be transplanted but liver cancer is bad news too.

I knew a guy, a former co worker. He was gay. I think he had unprotected sex. Caught Hep C and got a tumor in his liver. After they finally caught it, he died within a year. Highly aggressive.

I think that Hep C would be the worse. Along with AIDs...which I think medication has managed now.

I really don’t know what to say about these post. I was an oncology nurse for ten years. I have seen suffering which still today I have nightmares and wonder if their is a higher power. Also not to mention my good friend who has fought breast cancer and know has leukemia but is out there making the world a damn better place. I could go on and on about how I feel about what has been written but I’m not sometimes it is better to keep my mouth shut and just pray nothing horrible will happen to anyone. Please don’t pray for something like this. Namaste Pema

Well my dad had the 'Cadillac" of cancers and it's not all that great at all.... I have also done some palliative care and this isn't anything that anyone would want to have or wish either upon themselves or anyone else

I would never pray for it for anyone else. My family on my mother's side including my mother have a bad history. I lost friends to it. Still somehow the darkness whispers to let it be the easy way. My words of courage that counter the darkness. They are to Oncologists that might work on my case. To them I would say please do your best. And most importantly learn from me. My body is already promised to science. I am also an organ donor. So after I'm gone hopefully others can live on. Pema please just know I do not take the suffering of others lightly. I hope you can forgive me if this troubles you.

Drake I wish nothing but the best for you. I just hope the best for you. I understand people need to talk freely on this site so I get we have sometimes dark thoughts I’m sure you have someone on this site where you can talk one on one maybe that would make everyone more comfortable. Drake I hope the mohs surgery goes ok for you. I have had two along with interferon . It is doable just a bump in the road. Best of luck to you. Namaste Drake

My Uncle Joe died from prostate cancer. It was over 10 years ago. Not sure why. Maybe they did not have the PSA tests and radiation or proton therapy. Or the divinici method.....like my dad had to take his out.

Now they have the PSA tests...if your Gleason score is higher than something then you better goto a urologist.

Speaking of medical stuff. I know guys are supposed to get a colonoscopy. Im totally not looking forward to that procedure.

Folks I do not condone anyone harming themselves or allowing harm to come to them. Praying for an end to my troubles has to involve treatment and acceptance of my limits. This post was just an expression of how things go lately. My thoughts can be quite troubling. Sharing them here is one of my only outlets for now. Once I get some insurance issues resolved. I will seek the help I can get. I strongly recommend folks seeking help if needed.

I'm sorry you're fighting cancer. I understand how the mind can go to some very dark places.

I hope you beat it and kick it's ugly ass.

Thanks Mister Mojo

Big hug Drake..... I hope that you get the help that you need to heal..... That's all any of us want for you..... xo

My husband had stomach cancer. He was stick thin when he passed away. It was a horrible thing to watch someone wither away for months.
I'm sorry you going through this. Big hugs.

To date it's just a growing sore on my face. And the odds are good that it will be totally gone by Tuesday. Still those darker voices whisper things that try to eat away at me. The depression part of my bipolar can be like cancer. And then again it can be fought against. I choose to keep fighting. I have a lot to live for. You folks and your wonderful precious support are a big part of that. Thank you