You know, I couldn't ask for a better support group than what I get on here. Everyone has the most kind hearts and are so generous with their encouragement. I'm really bad with words so I wish I was able to give back the great support that I receive. I'm going to leave yesterday in the past and move forward. Thank you all for helping me pick myself back up.

Kathy, it's you guys that ROCK!!!! ((((((((big hugs))))))))

Yes, I agree, having trich means you have an enormous supporting heart!
I read some unusual things that can cause stress levels to prevent pregnancy, so when I find it I will send it to you.
You are doing the right thing, coming here and sharing your hard times with pulling. We all have to pick our bottom lip up off the floor and try again, and for some of us, we start over and over, so don't stop!
Stay strong, keep hands down, and when you are sick, try a comb for your eyebrows so that you are able to massage the sensitive area directly behind the eyebrows. (I was told today by the doctor that there is a definite physical connection with pulling hair when sick, especially eyebrows)
Hang in there, you are not alone, and day one, yippee!

Well I just want to echo what everyone else has said. Just little relapse, learn from it and move on. I'm lucky enough not to have been sick at all throughout the duration of my pull free, but I've heard what happened to you happens to a lot of people. Eg pf and fine for a week or two, or three, then bam! Flu/ period/hangover etc hits and pulling commences. It's totally part of recovery. You are doing do great :)

I always find two weeks is the hardest point for me - each time I go PF two weeks is the cracking point. Just remeber - it doesn't mean you are back to square one. Next time if you pull (which I hope you don't) see if you can stop yourself - its so so hard but something I am learning to do now.

Regarding pregnancy - its good all your tests came back fine - for some people it just takes a while - one of my friends got pregnant with clomid so fingers crossed it works for you! I also am on a website for people who are TTC/pregnant/have families/etc and since joining there in dec 08 have seen so many babies born to couples who struggled - including one woman who had ivf after having her tubes removed - she gave birth to twins last month and another who at 41 had 3 miscarriages and took two years to conceive again - she is now 34 weeks pregnant with a (so far) healthy baby. So amazing - very few people can never have their own child - and my BIL and SIL adopted two boys after giving up on ivf - they are very happy! Fingers crossed for you that its your turn soon!!

I really worry about having a baby (especially a daughter) that i would pass trich to them...as well as all my other mental problems lol!

Hope you are feeling better and back on your PF feet again!! x

Thanks all!!! Working on day 3 again for my eyebrows, so that's a good thing. And I'm thinking maybe, just maybe, I see some little black spots on my left upper eyelid signifying new lashes. Even though I know it will take a while for them to actually grow, at least I know they're coming :) A small ray of sunshine, but definitely a positive!!

I also wanted to thank you all for your kind words and encouragement regarding our TTC journey. It means soooooooooo much! This has been a very emotional 15 months for me. Hoping that it will come to a good end here very soon!

Lots of Love to you all!!!!!

Eyebrows - 2 days
Eyelashes - 16 days

yay for day 3!! and so exciting about the possible new growth! definitely something that will keep you motivated to get your hands under control!
xxxx

So glad to hear you're straight back on track, that's awesome. Also exciting to hear about your eyelashes peeping through :) Sunshine indeed!!

Hoping you have luck with a pregnancy soon too. xo

Well, only a half good update. Still PF on the eyelashes, but have been back to day 1 on my eyebrows multiple times in the last week. Today makes day 0, so I'll have to start over tomorrow. ((Sigh)) Really hoped I'd be doing a little better. I need to start making more time to check in to DS more frequently. Been busy and tired that I just haven't. Oh well, let's start at the beginning (sort of) again.

Eyebrows - 0 days
Eyelashes - 22 days

Please stay on here, in touch! I know, just how hard it is to keep from the eyebrows. Together, the both of us can do this!
Congratulations on the eyelashes! Congratulations on the eyebrows. Knowing you did slip is better to help you be stronger!
Best wishes with your baby making machine time - and the drumroll begins now!

Thanks mid!! I've done quite a bit of damage on the eyebrows today :( Really need to refocus my energies. I've got to keep reminding myself that I need the same energy throughout the entire time, not just at the beginning. Bring on day 1!!!

I actually had an ob appt today. The Clomid didn't work this cycle so I didn't ovulate. We upped the dosage from 50mg to 100mg for next cycle when it starts. Fingers, toes and limbs crossed that it works this time!!!!!

Hey, you should start now! I started my pull free at 6pm, no point waiting til the next day, the next week etc.

Woweee re: 22 days pf on your eyelashes!! Awesome. I've heard that eyebrows are much harder to stop than eyelashes. Weird!! Keep up your excellent work, I find thinking of my goals and writing them down constantly really helps.

Ugh, eyebrows are so much harder to leave alone. It's interesting, after reading the regrowth section. It says that eyelashes tend to grow back faster. That is so not the case for me. My eyebrows grow back infinitely faster. It seems to take my eyelashes FOREVER!!! Doing well so far and the day's just about over. It may have to do with the fact that I basically have no eyebrows left, but hey, you gotta start somewhere :)

Eyelashes - 23 days
Eyebrows - 1 day

Ugh yes waiting for hair to grow is all to depressing. I try not to focus on it.

You're doing so great on your pull free!!!

Have you looked into Latisse? It's expensive but I've heard the results are really good.

I am definitely going to look in to Latisse at some point, but it's not in the budget right now. All of my infertility tests weren't covered by my insurance so I have quite a lot in bills that I'm trying to pay off. Stupid insurance....grrrrrrrr!!!!!