Hello kpj3610!

I understand your frustration, I am in the same boat as you.
I'm slowly coming out, but sometimes I'm afraid I will never get back to myself. Its a scary feeling. But I'm really trying to put in my head that this is only temporary and will pass. Try to remain positive if at all possible for you!

Just breathe Center yourself be aware of your surroundings calm yourself just remember when you're feeling this way it will pass whatever's going on in your life if its head tactic if it's overwhelming there's always that time to get over these feelings and insecurities I dealt with anxiety also most of the time I've been diagnosed it is possible to feel at peace it will come and go but remember just take it day at a time

KP---As someone with a very long history of anxiety in many its worse guises I would encourage you to consider getting a prescription for Xanex and possibly an anti-depressant. Yoga, meditation and herbs etc are all part of a program, but sometimes you just need some real relief. I have used Xanex for nearly 30 years now. It is a wonder drug but you need to be very disciplined with it. It can create a safety net for you while you figure out a long term solution. I have never used over .5 in all that time. Imipramine has been a life saver. Anxiety can be a nasty disorder and don't be afraid of seeking some medical help.

Steadying support, KPJ. Anxiety management does often feel like holding back an ocean's tide with a tea spoon. Anxiety is a mean, well-fed beast here in a world that measures time in picoseconds. Meet the smart phone. . . Am I smart now?

I'm glad you felt safe to come here and vent these frustrations. The sharing helps me considerable in holding a steady course through the chaos. I hope it helped you, as well. Did it?

Steadying support while you sort which therapy cocktail is right for the unique person you are. You are not alone.

Kpj I hear you and I too and doing the expensive Accupuncture and Neurofeedback and I did feel better for a while and now, worse again. I understand and it’s so scary and frustrating. May I ask where you do your Neurofeedback? I go to a center, am on my 63rd session and will have my next assessment this week. I am supposed to be there for a session today but my brain feels so weird (explained in my first post) they told me cancel and just come for the re-assessment. I hope I am not making my brain worse. But the anxiety, weird feelings, and fear continue. Hang in there. I want to believe that what I and everyone here is experiencing is not a “punishment” but rather an opportunity to learn new and better coping tools and behaviors. I hope this helps you feel less alone.

For what it's worth, Lotus, I do not believe my mental health issues are punishment any more than my brother-in-law's Huntington's Disease is punishment. Compost happens.

I'm not sure if that is comforting, or not, but at least it keeps me solution oriented.