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Watching the news this afternoon brought about depression and anxiety. Then there was the  sad story that Dea told me. I guess if I'm not heartbroken, I must be something else:depressed or...

Sometimes I am looking on the Internet for answers about my life, my fate. I google it. I have always found info about anything online. Why shouldn't I seek for that page that has my name at the...

Sunday, beautiful sunny day and for the first time in months a clean room! And yet here I am, listening to Like a rolling stone and feeling down. I have my French books on the table, my homework...

I have taken the hardest decision in my life. I decided to leave biochemistry for my dream: LITERATURE. I am pretty sure I'll regret this later and this surely is a HUGE risk. But, hey, i'll go for...

Felt better today. Didn't do much but the depression was gone. Maybe this has to do with the fact that he left out of town too. He'll be back on Sunday and I am scared of how I will react seeing his...

Very bad day yesterday. I did the most stupid thing possible. I called him.Note to self: never do that again.He was nice on the phone, nice as in calm tone, easily telling me he wants nothing to do...

One week after the big news: "it's over between us".Mixed up feelings. Relief, guilt, frustration, anger..Above all:LOVE. The sad, shameful truth for today, I still love him.

Since the breakup everything has been spiraling downwards. The separation was sad, so was our story but those are in the past. It's what happens afterward that is really precarious and so unlike what...

I feel terrible. It's 4:30 am and I've just had a rigid nasal endoscopy.Last night, while I was eating my oat cereals, I sneezed and instantly it crossed my mind that a flake might have got stuck...

Now there's WoW

I haven't been online here for quite a while. The main reason I was here in the first place, the break up, has faded into forgetfulness..But I miss the people here, so I'm back..I read AJ's entry...

My dad hates the mess in my room. I know it. he has an obsession with tidiness. Three years ago,he used his savings to refurbish the house, to make his dream come true.Now, the trouble is, I am very...

My friends encourage me. Everytime I mention him, they will snap me out of it, they will remind me I have a new life and that maybe I am better off without him.But, I just want to tell someone I miss...

I can't sleep without my ear pluggs and yet my mother hides them away from me and then pretends she knows nothing about it. I feel like a crazy person who doesn't know where her stuff is. 

  I guess I kinda got used to being lonely. I was at peace with myself.But last night I listened to Dire Straits. Life just came back to me. The heartache, the feelings. i felt alive. Well,...